recently broke up w someone who was exploring this kind of dynamic with me.
they really liked it and well so did i.
really sad about it for a lot of reasons obviously but it hurts even more when i think about it in this context.
i was able to explore my sexuality & kinks i liked. they were too. it felt very intimate to know what we were into even “taboo” stuff. obviously them taking a caregiver role is hard to forget to. it’s hard to take care of myself now while going through a breakup. but it’s even harder when i remember all the ways they’d take care of me.
i really liked knowing that this dynamic gave them pleasure too. and now that’s all gone. i really really liked that dynamic and it made me feel pleasure sexually and non sexually. now that’s it’s gone it feels terrible. idk what i’m saying.
it just sucks