anyone else have extreme resistance to full blackout/pass-out?
since as long as i can remember, my benzo tolerance has been stupidly high compared to what i understand to be ‘average’. even on my first ever try, i had 2-4mg (so long ago i can’t recall) i didn’t black out, while all those around be went full zombie mode.
as in, i could pop 100-200% more than the homies and they’d all pass tr OUT, fully unresponsive and impossible to wake up. (still breathing normally ofc) meanwhile im still (obvs fkd up) but awake and ready to fkn keep the night going nonetheless. mixing heavily with alcohol, as a young imbecile does.
I might get a few memory gaps (duh) but during these times (according to third parties) i will be ‘awake’ but not necessarily coherent and just going buck wild, refusing to sleep, follow instructions, even if i was put to bed id get right back up and continue cause chaos.
i would finally fall asleep and wake up in the morn with my room fucked up, empty bottles of liquor, missing benzos, and no idea how it had all unfolded.
this is a ‘thing of the past for me’, but occasionally i still dabble. (it’s 5:30am, ive had 2mg clonaz, 2mg alp, bottle of red and 2x 6% beers. rant over