I’m so easily influenced and after some encouragement from strangers on Reddit, I bought a pump so I can make my tits swollen and milky. Essentially I want them constantly sore and achey and leaking. Planning on spending the evening pumping and edging so I associate pumping with being horny. Just a leaky little stoned goonette.
Open to recommendations on how long to keep them on, how to increase the intensity, etc.
I posted yesterday about being told to edge for 15+ hours and I’m proud to say that I was successful. 🥰
Towards the end of the day, my stupid little clit was so sore and swollen, I was drunk, and a delightfully mean man wanted to hear me cry, which is how I ended up torturing my clit. I could barely keep it on a minute the first time but I did it again…and again…and then used my suction toy until I was ugly crying from the pain and my brain was broken.
I’ve been so sore all day but every time I feel it hurt, my cunt just starts leaking…and so I’m back…rubbing again. Curious to see what other ways I can be broken.
My long time pervert friend has informed me that I will be spending the day edging and getting high. Looking for anyone to help make me worse and melt my brain even more.
It started last night with 5 hours of edging before bed last night. I fell asleep with my clit suction toy on and a plug in my ass. Woke up 4.5 hours later and immediately started rubbing again.
Here are my instructions:
- Edge ALL day until 8pm 😭
- Smoke more at least every 2 hours
- Start drinking no later than 2pm
- Water at least every 3 hours
- Something to eat at noon
I will obey because I’m a good girl. I’m a good girl because I don’t know how to be anything else.
I deleted my last account and not even two days later, I’m back.
I just want to be normal. The kind of girl who sips oatmilk lattes and does Pilates and laughs over brunch with friends. I want to not have a lifetime of trauma compounded by mental illness. I don’t want to like the things that get me wet.
But here we are and some guy online told me to shove my panties in my cunt, so I figure may as well make the best of it and use my trauma to be entertaining.