u/2steezy8breezy

… i was kinda heartbroken icl and i obviously need to start being more consistent. My throne is still barren and ive had the same 2 subs in rotation for like 2 months now. i don’t feel like the quality of my posts have changed at all but this year has actually been really hard for me in this space. if anything i’ve started to enjoy the peace of just being a part of the community in itself but holy shit- it’s also almost discouraging, bc IRL everyone finds me as this cool and collected absolutely gorgeous queen and i get the perks of that in my every day life- like i don’t remember the last time i bought my own groceries or paid my own rent. but i feel like that’s why it hurts my ego so much to basically see myself not being worshipped the same way on the internet. Im also just in a bit or a slump tho which i guess translates more into my lack of effort- but ugh. at this point i just wanna give subs my instagram and just mesh together my online presence and my personal life because there is honestly so much more or my personality and my life to see.

Which obviously might be a terrible idea because i have no job and i probably need to preserve my image cuz i have so much to protect but im tired of trying to split myself into multiple fractions because ALL of me is really just ME.

Like oh my gosh- im just gonna stop now cuz idk how i got this far into this rant. but yeah.

Edit bc i have more thoughts:

I think it’s easier for me irl because i can clearly discern whether someone is actually interested in what i have to offer and there is less of a chance for me to not … hate them because i don’t have to text and do all that small talk to form a dynamic… like maybe it feels more natural because it’s almost unspoken, just the tension of knowing that what we are doing isn’t normal. The tension of a grown man starting a completely vanilla conversation with me… but deep down we know what the other yearns for.

my birthday is coming up and unfortunately the economy has not adjusted itself to the lifestyle i deserve

i’m trying to put together a fun and very extravagant birthday and figured i’d shamelessly let my kink participate in funding the chaos. if you enjoy my posts, think i’m funny, or simply believe pretty women should never have financial stress, contributions are very appreciated 🩷

every dollar goes toward important essentials like drinks, outfits, and making questionable but memorable decisions with my friends

it’s actually very heartbreaking. i had a sub reach to me to out to eat his own shit in a sandwich dressed up as a sissy and i just accidentally clicked ignore instead of accept and actually felt my heart drop, just gone. and this is a CONSTANT occurrence for me. 🫠😞