I was having a banging time on ket at a show, someone gave me coke nasal spray and I instantly felt like a slab of concrete. I'm feeling super depressed. pls be kind
Hey, I am wondering if anyone is willing to give some advice or just friendly encouragement. If this kind of post isn't allowed here, I'd really appreciate a suggestion of where else to go.
I was having an almost euphoric experience on ket at a fest, someone I trusted was so insistent that it would be even better on coke and so I went for it. It was like a switch flipped, the mushy "in the clouds" good feels disappeared physically and mentally, I immediately got really negative self talk and depressive thoughts, couldn't enjoy the show which sucks bc I paid almost $1k for the weekend and have been looking forward to seeing this band for 8 years. I tried hard to drop back into the show, then tried to just ride with it. Whatever, shit happens. But my night was absolutely shit, I was so depressed I could barely move or talk. I looked dead on the rail lmao.
I understand it'll get better with time but I'm feeling truly awful. I had therapy scheduled and my therapist canceled. My partner is feeling terrible themselves for having pushed the coke so they're not really emotionally available to be supportive and is just frustrated that I don't know what I want or need. I feel frustrated and sad, too. I searched a bit about this combo but everyone seems to say it's immaculate for them. I have dysthemia and always worry when depressive feelings grow.
Just hoping for tips to ride it out and reminders that I won't be depressed forever thanks y'all