Hey… this is my first time ever posting here and I’m really scared and embarrassed. My name is Amelia, I’m 18, and I’m the typical shy nerdy girl. Glasses, baggy hoodies, spends most evenings playing games with my boyfriend Kuba I’m generally super inexperienced with everything we’ve only had sex a few times and it’s always very gentle, lights off, nothing crazy. I basically know nothing about this stuff.
Anyway last weekend Kuba went to visit his family in Kraków so I was home alone. My friend Zuzia convinced me to come to a small party at her cousin’s place. There were maybe 10-12 people, nothing too big. I told myself I’d stay just a little while but i got comfortable and so stayed a bit longer. We were all drinking a bit (I don’t drink much so I got drunk pretty quick) and sitting in a hot tub then someone suggested Truth or Dare. I decided to play because i was already a bit buzzed but still olny tried to only pick truth. Then dares started getting wilder and wilder until i was told i can't keep choosing truth all the time so i picked datre. This guy Jakub (tall, confident, friend of Zuzia’s) dared me to sit on his lap in the hot tub. Not wanting to back out now even though I was nervous I did it. After a minute I could feel him getting hard against me. My heart was beating so fast and honestly I didn’t know how to react. Later they dared him to kiss me. I said I have a boyfriend but everyone was laughing and chanting “do it”. So I turned around and we kissed. It was really intense, not soft like with Kuba. His hands were holding me tight under the water. Then someone dared me to take my bikini top off. I was so embarrassed, my face was burning. I kept saying no but Jakub whispered “just do it, don’t be boring”. I don’t know why but I actually untied it and let it float away. My tits were out in front of everyone. I felt so slutty but also kind of excited. Jakub pulled me closer and while the game continued his hands were touching me everywhere under the water my ass, my boobs, my nipples. Then he dared me to touch him. And even though i never touched another guy before I reached into his shorts and started stroking him. At the same time he put his fingers in my bikini bottoms and started rubbing me. It felt so good I had to bite my lip not to moan. Eventually most people got out of the hot tub. It was just me and Jakub left. He moved my bottoms to the side and pushed inside me against the water. It hurt a bit at first because I’m not used to it, but then it started feeling really intense. The warm water, the bubbles, knowing someone could walk out any second… He was fucking me harder and whispering stuff like “you’re such a tight little slut for cheating on your boyfriend”. I came really hard my whole body was shaking and I couldn’t stop making noises. When he said he was going to cum I should have told him to pull out but I was too lost in it. He pushed deep and came inside me. I could feel it shooting into me. Afterwards I quickly put my bikini back on, said bye to whoever was still there and drove home. Kuba comes back tomorrow and I feel like absolute shit… but I keep getting wet every time I think about what happened. I was always the innocent good girl and now I don’t know who I am anymore. Sorry if this is messy, I’m just really confused right now.