My name is Zainab, I am 19 years old and from India.
I am genz , but also misogynist :)
this is not necessarily sexual post but I think its more of showing respect, and speaking myself out. I come from a conservative Indian family. When I was younger, I used to feel like something was wrong with me or that I deserved more freedom. Now I see things clearly.
My Abbu made sure I dressed modestly and did not show skin. I am beaten when necessary. This is not abuse to me but I think it is the right way to raise a girl. It teaches a girl obedience, which is very much required in a girl I feel.A girl is inherently a slut untill men control, tame her wildness within.
I know a lot of modern People call this misogyny and say it is bad, but I think they are wrong. And If women are left free to do what they want, they will cheat on their husbands and eventually destroy families. If control by men is not given, it will be chaos?
I was given female circumcision, when I was very young , some people here asked me how it felt, well i dont remember because i was very young, but i know the while other girls have flaps, clit all those uneven parts on their cunts, i dont, mine is simple tiny hole, which keeps me away from sexual urges and so i wont cheat on the man and more focus on providing him right pleasure.
In our beliefs, a woman's sexual urge is seen as sinful, basically a girl who moans, or wants sex, dresses short, laughs out loud is a slut. I do not know what having a clitoris and other parts feels like, but I think I am happier without it. Now I do not focus on my own pleasure. I can focus completely on the man's needs which I sure dream about. I do not care about his size or stamina, which most girls unfortunately judge.
I am not perfect I know, I still watch porn sometimes. The idea of being close to a man, touching him, feeling his body, this interests me. When I touch myself inside my vagina, it feels good. but i dont over do my vagina, only if i touch inner part there is inner bit burning and little good sensation but then i get tired of touching after few minutes and then feels wrong.
Maybe this is different from how other girls masturbate because of my circumcision. But I think this also makes me more compliant and obedient. I feel I am preparing myself to serve a man properly,to take pain, follow commands, and give him pleasure.
How we are tought a job of a girl is, no urge for sex, she knows how to cook, clean make him happy, and he provides for her..i know this sounds outright wierd now but i thnik its beautiful, i am not exactly like, i know i sitll lack few qualities that i am learning..
I know some people will call me wierdo or something, but I am just normal girl who still watch tv shorts, over eats lol, I just prefer that girls were more respectful to men,
I for one am happy being lower and inferior to men, this post is not more about sex but bit of confession and I would love to know what you men think 😊
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Also..
I believe a good man wants an obedient wife for a stable family. My friends and the things I see on social media show me that girls have become too wild and sexual. I wonder if they can be good wives or not. I think its a beautiful relationship, the man is given sex however he is needed, no questions asked, he do not have to think about how he has to perform but only take whats his, and he provides for his inferior wife. and she is happy.
Ofcourse you guys are all welcomed to do all sorts of comments, i am open and intersted to hear all of u. thank u so much for hearing me out..
i dont mind talking , its all good, all men are welcomed and respected, but i dont know if i can help with nudes of mine, dont mind please. and thank you for hearing me out again.
Zainab.
I am not perfect, but I know my place.