u/Beneficial-Sleep1130

i am ecstatic. you guys. i can't even. last night it finally happened and i am still riding that high.

i started experimenting with my butt much earlier but learned about my own prostate orgasm about 8 years ago when the then partner of mine hit the spot just right during a blowjob and it felt like an anal orgasm. it immediatly became my favourite way to cum. thus i started to experiment with the prostate more intently during masturbation but without much success. it only really worked with a finger of someone else. ever since tought every woman i have been with how to do it and all of them greatly enjoyed it. some started experimenting and were intentionally using the penis very little. but i could never tip over without at least a little stimulation. but i wanted to. hands free. anal only. never got there. i read all the guides i could find and tried many different approaches. i eventually made peace with the fact my body just couldnt do it. no penis, no orgasm, i just gotts live with that

about 5 months ago i made a choice that i would stop masturbating by stroking. if i came without my partner, it would be in chastity and with a dildo. chastity meant a) stimulating possibilities greatly reduced so focus would need to be anal and b) unable to get hard, which made it surprisingly difficult to cum all by itself. i often failed in my endeavors which would leave me horny and frustrated (yes, i also have a denial kink which was part of why i did it). i eventually figured out the best way to touch myself through de opening of the cage and orgasms fairly consistently which ultimately defeated the purpose, although i could never orgasm in chastity without anal. so i bought a solid steel cage that would completely deny any possibility of touching. so when i want to deny myself i would put on the steel cage, when i wanted to cum i put on the old one. well, last night i was completely locked up safely as i have been every night of the week, i wanted to save my orgasm for the weekend. so there i was, edging myself anally as usual. i somehow tensed up in a slightly different way while and immediatly felt there was something different. like this could be enough. after that it took another hour at least but i was stubborn and i could feel it just within my grasp. by the time the orgasm started i was already edged out of my mind. but i didnt actually ejaculate right away, i sort of just let it happen rather then forcing it. intense waves of pleasure flooded my body and i moaned like never before. after about 20 seconds of cumming i started ejaculating as well, it was flowing out of me like a stream and down my legs, it felt almost like i peed myself it was so much.

you guys, it took only 8 years. and it was worth it. trust the process, keep edging, keep experimenting.

lots of love

i adore being horny and desperate, feeling the need to touch myself. i love denial, and when i finally allow myself a release i usually give myself restrictions to make it as difficult as possible, sometimes too difficult even (my current favourite is locked in chastity cage, the only way i can cum this way is with a dildo rubbing my prostate and it is still difficult and takes a long time).

however, i cannot trust myself to stroke, like at all. whenever i do, i just keep on edging until either my will to stop gets too weak or, more commonly, around the fifth edge or so i reach a point of no return and trip over the edge. the same thing happened today. i intended to keep denying for at least a few more days but my body had other plans. i was gooning and rubbing my leaky cage. i wanted to stroke for a little bit, so i grabbed the key to unlock. fast forward i am a few edges deep and my will to stop in time starts crumbling. but i keep telling myself no. and then it happens. i approach another edge, so i stop completely and move away my hand. i even relax the muscles involved in cumming and i just breathe. there is nothing i can do, i suddenly feel that its gonna happen and i barely manage to snatch a tissue in time. all the built up arousal gone in a second :(

edging is too hard, i think i have to make peace with the fact that i shouldnt be allowed to take the cage off at home during denial periods. i have tried hypno files which help a tiny bit but aren't strong enough to stop an orgasm. someone controlling my orgasm has helped in the past but i dont currently have a domme/mommy to tell me no. i have experimented with timers but it didnt have the desired effect. if you have any other ideas feel free to share, otherwise i guess i need to accept my life of rubbing a caged limp dick 🫠