u/Beneficial_Appeal398

Im really confused at the moment with my current trend. I keep thinking about 'situational bandages of women' and just in general using sex as a weapon to make them cry and beg me to stop. While this is happening, my partner is fucking me and laughing. I am not into women. I love my partner, but its kinda got me worried im starting a villain arc. Can anyone help explain or just a general idea of what's going on? Is this a kink? Am I just f'd up?