I’ve always been attracted to my dad
F19 here. Just some thoughts I've had recently. I'm always looking for a father figure in my potential partners, and yes, I do have a dad; it's not like I'm looking for one because I don't have one.
Maybe it's because I want to keep feeling pampered and cared for all the time. I have my temper, but sometimes I can't help liking being told what to do.
But it's getting more and more complicated. I've rarely liked guys my own age because, of course, this kind of figure is usually found in someone at least twice my age, but there's also attitude. I've met older men who act like guys my age, and that's a terrible disappointment.
My father has always been athletic, and it's only recently that I've realized how this attraction to men with thick, veiny forearms, extremely protective and manly men, all comes from him... It's been difficult not to see someone who's so strongly influencing my search for a partner in a different light. Can you imagine coming home and introducing him to a partner who looks too much like him? Haha.
I have mixed emotions because when I fantasize, I can't help but imagine physical details I see in my father, so I'd say my ideal man is older, athletic, and if he's bald, even better, haha. But if I tell you I'm very similar to my mother, wouldn't there be too much in common between us?
These thoughts used to cause me a lot of trouble, but now they just amuse me. I think some people can trust their role models and know that what they saw in their parents is what they want for themselves.
Am I going too far? Although if someone remembers me (this is a new account), you’ll know there’s more…