I'm finally ready for it
So I (M34) think I'm finally ready to gain more weight. Granted I'm already obese, 350 pounds, but lately Its been harder and harder to push away the thoughts of wanting to eat more and more and get even bigger and become a real SSBHM.
My whole life I wanted more but I've been afraid and ashamed but now I'm just like fuck it.
I think a lot of it has been that my wife has lost a lot of weight recently, which I was a little nervous about at first when she said she wanted to, but I was 100% supportive because I love her so much. Turns out, she looks just as beautiful as before and I'm happy she's happy so it's all good. But that kinda of made me take stock of my own body and wrestle with the idea if I wanted to lose weight to and for a while I thought I did. But thinking about how I'm not super comfortable with going with an obesity medication for a few reasons, while I have nothing against people who do, I ended up not pursing it. I started being more comfortable with my size and seeing how fat I looked in there mirror I realized if I lost this I would probably be upset in the long run.
Plus with my wife losing weight, I started to like the contrast more and more and the idea of me being the really big one and her small, which is something new for me as I always had feeder tendencies (I guess the feeder to feeder pipeline is real).
My whole life I've been sucking in my stomach and lately I've been making the conscious decision reduce the amount of sucking it in and I have to say it's been wonderful. Borderline euphoric to not have the stress of holding it in nearly as much and being my actual size. It makes just existing feel better and eating even more fun!
So I really want to get fatter and just let myself go and be happy. Major plus I told my wife that I want to eat more, gain weight and have my belly touched more and she is all for it she says that she loves my belly and feeling smaller next to me who is so big already and that shes happy that it makes me happy and satisfied with myself.
Even at home where I could be comfortable i still held in my stomach just out of force of habit, but now forcing my self to be my fully fat self has been wonderful, my body just feels so much more loose and calm feeling my huge belly be in its natural state. So I think I'm finally ready to be as fat as I really want and enjoy every second
Sorry for rambling, I've just had a lot of feelings about this 😂