u/Brief_Blackberry1472

I just tried it today, i did 1200mg with 30 minutes in between. My last dose was almost three hours ago and i honestly feel really nice right now. I'm not sure how long it'll last, but i felt energized at first although now i feel more sedated and really relaxed. I painted for a little bit and danced while listening to music but now i just want to lay down and rest for the entire night. I also want to stay up though just to enjoy the high.

I've never tried benzos before although this seems to really help with anxiety. I could very easily socialize on this or do it in a public setting, and i don't really think anyone would notice. I just feel like everything in my life will be okay right now. I'm not worried about anything. I'm also a little hungry which was unexpected because i thought it would reduce my appetite.

19m and poly addict. I haven't done coke in three days, opioids in two days, and ketamine in like 10 days. I really want to relapse even though my withdrawals aren't even physical right now. I just don't enjoy doing anything. Every day is hard for me to get through. I feel terribly mentally. I got a gym membership recently so I'm hoping that'll help. I know the withdrawals are all mental so i should just be able to go cold turkey, but i don't really know what to do in the meantime or how to cope

I haven't tried them before but i am curious about lyrica since i know they can feel similar to opioids which is my main DOC. I don't know how the feelings of them differentiate from one another but it sounds like a really relaxing feeling. I'm kinda scared of the weight gain aspect of it though lmao

I'm a film student in college. The only thing i care about aside from substances is filmmaking although i've realized that i realistically will not be able to make it as a filmmaker due to how hard the industry is (and my own personal problems) I've been diagnosed with a lot of disorders from a very young age. Depression, anxiety, PTSD, a restrictive eating disorder, autism, and schizotypal personality disorder. I struggle to connect with other people because my conditions. I love studying film in school so much and the specific college i go to is extremely important to me. I refuse to tell anyone about my drug usage because i am terrified of being suspended because of this. One of my closest friends also sells or gives me stuff, and he used to go to the same school as me but was suspended after he unintentionally overdosed and was hospitalized.

I started seeing a therapist when i was literally five years old but i gave up last year because i realized that i'll never stop feeling as miserable as i am constantly. I've seen different psychiatrists. I've been on different meds. I was in a hospital for three months. Nothing has ever helped me. I have so much trauma starting from as early as i can remember. I hate waking up in the morning. I hate being conscious. I hate feeling sober. I'm mostly into opioids, coke, and ketamine. My closest friend might be manipulating me at this point but i don't even care anymore. The only thing that has ever given my life any fulfillment is films, although since i started to develop an addiction to drugs this year, i realized how unachievable that is for me. The only thing i'll ever have outside of that is drugs. I don't care about relationships, about family, about having a shitty 9-5 job. I can't live the life thats expected of me. My dad hates that he knows i'll never have kids or get married. These are all things i've known about myself before my drug usage started. I do things like eat healthy, go to the gym, go to my job, etc. It doesn't actually make me feel better though. Every second i'm sober, i'm thinking about how meaningless my entire life is and how hard it'll be to continue living like this. I'm scared to continue living at all knowing that i'll always feel the same. I got accepted into such a good school too but i'll still manage to mess everything up for myself again.

I wish that things were different for me and everyone else that has to suffer. I wish i was born under better circumstances. I wish i wasn't diagnosed with the disorders that i have. I wish that i didn't have to experience the trauma i've been through. I wish that i enjoyed living my day-to-day life. I wish i could be normal. I am so sick of knowing that i'll never contribute anything to society. Substances give my life a purpose in a way, but i'm scared that they'll just end up mentally destroying me more than i already have. My friend has tried to convince me to do things i wouldn't otherwise and would bribe me with opioid pills, and i feel disgusted that i was even tempted. I've already done things i wouldn't do otherwise in order to feed into my addiction. I'm not ready to change as a person, but i'm scared that i already have.

When consuming a 7oh tablet, how do you usually swallow it? Do you chew it beforehand, or swallow the pill like someone normally would?

I haven't done it in over a week. I think i should stop now so i've been trying to get better. I'm 19m and i can't say if i'm addicted or not because i started doing it for the first time less than two months ago, but i was doing it every day for a few weeks and my sober friends were worried about me. I felt irritable and fatigue when trying to quit. After not doing it in a week, i decided to go through the rest that i had just to finish the amount of coke that i did have. I rarely cry anymore because of one of the meds i'm on and my personality, i felt good for a period of time but then i just started randomly crying when i came down from the coke. I don't know how common this is or why i experienced it. I'll try to be more sober from today though

I've done oxys, hydros, and 7oh. I'm not surprised 7oh makes me feel foggy afterwards (i honestly fiend for it even more than oxycodone even though i prefer how oxys feel) I did oxys yesterday and even though opioids don't have a "come down" I felt really depressed once the euphoria was gone, foggy, and a lack of motivation. Is this common? I feel fine now and don't have a hangover or anything.

A lot of people suffer from being a poly addict and are just addicted to a variety of substances, and others have one specific drug of choice. For me, i think i'm a poly addict at this point so it isn't just one type of drug i'm drawn to, although i definitely have some i prefer over others. I know people with ADHD for example, are more drawn to coke. I'm 19m and my main substances of choice are ketamine, opioids, and coke.

I've been diagnosed with a lot of different conditions since a young age. I have a condition called schizotypal personality disorder, and my friend with the same diagnosis as me have talked a lot about our experiences with ketamine and why we think people with our personality disorder are more drawn to it. I love psychedelics like shrooms and acid as well (so does he). I'm also diagnosed with depression and PTSD, and i feel like that could partially be why i'm so drawn to opioids. I love the feeling of nodding off, because when i'm depressed I really just want to sleep constantly and be unconscious for long periods of time. So that, along with the euphoria and feeling that everything is going to be alright somehow, makes me feel really attached to the feeling i get from opioids. I actually don't have ADHD, but i am autistic (and my ptsd effects my attention to an extent as well) and i feel like this kind of plays into my coke usage. I only ever hear people talking about people with ADHD being drawn to coke, although i always felt like coke made some of my symptoms from being autistic and having a cluster A personality disorder go away. I feel more comfortable with who i am while i'm on coke and don't really have social anxiety anymore. I've actually never had my psychosis triggered from weed or psychedelics, but instead from stimulants like coke. I struggle with empathy and have done molly once, and while the substance is nice, i didn't really feel like it was the best feeling in the world or anything. I felt euphoric and warm and i was happy to be with my friend, but i still didn't feel much empathy and it wasn't super intense.

I am really interested in knowing why some people are drawn to specific drugs or types of drugs. Why someone would prefer uppers or downers, stimulants or opioids, etc.

I've done 7oh and hydros before, never oxys though. I'm 19m, 110lbs and i'm doing it after a few weeks of having no opioids so i'll have no tolerance. I know they're perscription pills. How does the tylenol make the high feel any different? Would 10mg of the oxycodone be enough to get me high?

I'm 19m, i developed an addiction to coke and ketamine recently (i did those two substances daily or every other day throughout the month of apni), i also consume street opioids whenever i can although they're less common where i am so i usually just consume 7-oh. I don't even think i like stimulants that much, i definitely prefer painkillers like opioids and ketamine. I do coke frequently but i honestly don't really get much out of the high at all. I tried molly recently and it was nice, but not as euphoric as i thought it would be. I tried crack for the first time last month too, but will probably just be sticking to coke. I also have psychosis, which is something i suffered from before i started consuming substances. I have noticed that drugs like weed or psychedelics don't trigger my psychosis, but coke does. Coke makes me paranoid, occasionally hallucinate, and it triggers some of my delusions as well. I don't know if this is common for coke or not, but i've noticed it from the first time i consumed it.

Even though i was doing coke very frequently last month, i actually didn't have to buy my own too often. My closest friend is a cokehead and i would usually be at his house consuming it with him, and he wouldn't mind letting me have multiple lines or bumps throughout our sessions. When we first started talking, he told me he used to do meth for around a year. He also has psychosis and has had it been triggered by meth, and would literally stand outside his house completely naked without realizing there was something wrong with it. He always told me not to do meth, but he recently relapsed a week ago and started consuming it. I do coke but don't like how short the high is. I know meth lasts way longer, and produces even more dopamine. He tells me that meth is really fun and i'm at a point mentally in my life where i feel like things will go wrong for me regardless, so i don't really have a lot of care for my safety or addiction problems. I hate that i even have an urge to try it with him, because i know it'll make my psychosis worse, and i'm worried i'll have a bad experience and freak out in front of my friend and make him think i'm insane or something. I know it would destroy me mentally because of my symptoms and the type of personality i have, so i don't know why i'm tempted into trying it just because of how fun my friend says it is.

I'm 19m, I've been doing coke every other day but don't really binge on it. I just do a few bumps over a period of time, and then I stop. I'm not sure if this usage could effect me and my health over time, I do get paranoid about my heart rate occasionally but haven't ever once been close to an OD before