Hi yall I'm looking for advice/comfort for this situation I'm in.
Ok basically I'm college aged, about to graduate and I have a very close friend who has now been in a relationship with one of my other friends for awhile. The thing is that I think I have a crush on my very close friend and like it sucks because I like approved them starting a relationship with each other and I think they go well together and stuff.
I'm like confused about my feelings because I've never really been in a romantic/sexual relationship but I'm also a very horny/sexual person deep down. And before my friends got into a relationship, me and my close friend had a talk about sex and relationships, and the way they described their sexual preferences seemed like we would mesh well together. They are like the only person who knows my sexual preferences to the extent we talked about and idk I think maybe I'm scared that no one else will be as compatible as I think me and my friend would be (this is all just speculation though since we've never had a sexual relationship) and that I won't feel comfortable expressing my wants to another person. Since it was even hard to kinda talk about sex casually with my friend.
Idk I think maybe I'm just like touch starved/horny/really want a romantic partner. And me and my close friend have gone through a lot of stuff together and we are like best friends and I love them and seeing them in a relationship makes me happy but also maybe jealous but I'm confused if it's because I want to be with them, or like I miss being their #1 person (or feeling like I was), or I wish I just had a romantic partner and a sex life. Maybe it's all the above lol.
Anyway has anyone else been in a situation similar? Any advice on how to cope/words of wisdom would be appreciated. I also just kinda needed to get this off my chest, thanks for taking the time to read.