Boyfriend wants to watch other guys have sex with me
My (28F) boyfriend (35M) started opening up more about sexual desires and kinks a few months ago. It was so great to open up and be honest about stuff like kinks and other desires, even things one might be embarrassed about. I felt like it made us so much closer.
His revelation was that he's always been really curious about watching me have sex with someone else. That it would feel like watching an amazing porn video to him. I thought he meant a 3some at first, but it eventually became clear that he meant he just wanted to watch like in a corner of the room or something. I tried to make him feel comfortable and seen with what he was saying and asking for, but I respectfully told him I was so not comfortable with that. He's brought it up many times since then, but not pressuring me at all. Just reminding me how much he'd love it.
For his 35th birthday, I wanted to do something really special for him so I agreed to fulfill his big fantasy. He had an acquaintance that he knew would be game and we planned to make it happen. It was an incredibly eye opening experience and I was shocked how intense it was. It was hands down the most sexually arousing experience I have ever had. Things happened during it that have never happened to me before, as far as state of sexual arousal. My boyfriend was so thankful and absolutely on cloud 9 after.
It was a bit confusing to me after the fact. Was I aroused because it was so hot to be pleasing my bf like that? Or was something else at play?
He keeps begging for a repeat. I definitely want to please him, especially given how excited he was last time.