u/Charming-Count6414

Today, I (19m) finally took the step I've been pushing off. As I posted recently, I have decided to get circumcised. But the actually committing to getting it done... that's been harder than I thought! The same doubts that are constantly permeating my mind are hard to dispute. For the past while, I have looked at a local clinic's website, which I believe will provide my best local results. I have continuously gotten as far as clicking the button to book and just seeing if I could complete it and always falling. Today, I tried and they said I had to call or text to book as online bookings were full. So I texted. It was hard to send the message but one thought came into my mind: "It's okay to be circumcised." For too long, I have been followed by a ghost who says, when I'm not horny, "if someone finds out you got circumcised, they're going to be weirded out." The retort that filled my brain when I clicked send was enthralling. I still don't know my final timeline, but if all goes well, I will be getting circumcised and promptly hiding from my parents (whom I live with.)! I can't wait!

I am 19m and I have pondered for YEARS about circumcision. A few nights ago, I finally made up my mind: Im going to do it. Since Im not really telling anyone IRL about this, I might as well celebrate it here.

Now really since I started going through puberty, Ive been OBSESSED with circumcision. I often wondered if attractive male actors were cut or not and loved the idea they were. Eventually, I got on the internet and learned even more about circumcision. Particularily, I was exposed to the "low and tight" style, which I was facinated by and particularly loved.

I remember at 15, I was already desiring to be cut. Part of me wanted it so, I was even ready to ask my parents to get me cut before high school. Obviously, those plans feel through. I had yet to conquer that "shame" (and if everything goes right, they never will find out).

Recently, I was spurn on to think about this whole "me getting circumcised thing." A sleepless night made me think about it as it was the thing busying my brain: I went over the pros and cons; I went over what worried me. In the end, I realised the biggest obsticle was a farce fear in my brain.

Quite simply, as a gay man I severely prefer cut for hygiene sake. I additionally love the look. I dont fear changes in sensation and pleasure. My fears have been quashed; I dont worry about judgement from potential partners, I no longer worry about regret. Where my past self has worried about modification of my body, it is, perhaps, my piercing my ears which recently opened me to its possibility. It is the regret that has poised me from getting it done. Too often, I worried it was a kink that drove me, but I know understand my deep-seeded desire for it that has persisted for years. Im still a little embarrassed. I sure dont know anyone IRL whose got it done at my age. But Im swallowing that for the comfort of being circumcised for thinking about it non-stop for around 6 years

For a while, Ive wished I mightve been circumcised as an infant. I know now it is only I who can rectify that mistake.

I have yet to cement the plans. There is still embarrassement to get over, but Im almost there. Im excided. I cant wait. Since Im too flustered to tell anyone IRL my thoughts, I hope to get it off my chest here. Hopefully, in the next little while, I will be circumcised and amongst the mighty, to whom Ive, for so long, wanted to join.

Feel free to inquire about anything. I will try to respond with haste.