u/Charming-Cup9711

So I had my first experience not to long ago... never had crossed over to this side before..

But I got drunk and downloaded grindr.

It didn't take long for someone to come over. My roommates were asleep so I snuck outside to his truck, he already had the seats laid down. I was overly anxious and he tried to calm me down. Very respectful even while he sucked me hard.

I turned my brain off. I wanted to get off and there was someone willing. That was it. Once I was ready, he bent over and I just went to town, busted everything inside. Then we went our separate ways.

But since then hes kinda been blowing me up. Wanting to hook up again and more. Idk how to feel. I dont think I'm very into it. And now I have a constant reminder everytime he texts me. I'll take any advice, and open to private convos.