Hi y'all! I'm a BBC loving sissy, out with friends in Toronto, bar hopping tonight, hoping to end the night finding one or more BBCs to please! Let me know if you're near church and interested 😘
God I just love everytime I get back into the habit of regularly engaging with BNWO content and black masters, I hit a point where seeing a pic of a BBC or just a message notification from a BBC master I've been chatting with, sends me into physical shivers, and my head starts spinning, I feel dizzy like I'm blacking out, my whole body starts tingling, and I feel my entire groin get warm and start leaking.
Unlike most whitebois here, I'm not one that treats the BNWO like some inescapable thing that has sunk its claws into me, that I can't escape. I KNOW that it's a physical response that I train and build, and one that also doesn't persist if I haven't engaged in BNWO content for a while. I'm fully aware that I can untrain it, or just let it fade by not engaging in it for a while.
But what I love is knowing that I'm CHOOSING to reinforce that physical response of feeling like I'm completely melting, and reinforcing that association with seeing BBC, so it becomes an instant and reliable trigger. I never get that feeling seeing women, or any other porn, even when I haven't been engaging with BNWO porn for a while. The cravings will reduce, and seeing BBC won't really trigger arousal, but nothing else will bring quite that intense arousal. The satisfaction of that intense horniness is indescribable. I'm not even looking to be relieved from that desperation. I'm more just enthralled by how powerful that state of desperation can be.
Rather than treating it as something I can escape, and something I should escape, I've realized that I appreciate the fact that it's not an immediate response when I haven't engaged with it for a while. It makes me have to work for it and earn it. It makes me thankful when I'm in that state, knowing I put in the effort and reinforcement day after day, and worked back up to submitting myself to the BNWO and being deserving of feeling the deep desperation for the opportunity to serve the BNWO.
It's a bit like creamy, sugary, desserts. If anyone's gone on a diet where they stuck to extremely clean foods consistently for multiple months, those cravings for sugars fade out until you don't really feel that desire for a donut or a piece of cake when you see one or smell one. And when you eat it, it tastes good, sure, but it doesn't feel as intensely satisfying as it does when eating it from a place of strongly craving it. If you truly want to prioritize longevity, you can learn to be perfectly happy living your life just eating clean, and making healthy food choices, and committing yourself to long term health. But you'll never experience that intense high of satisfying a strong craving again.
So is it possible to give up desserts for the rest of your life? No. Lots of people do it. But if you decide cutting off desserts isn't worth the several weeks of intense depression and dopamine lows while you fight cravings, followed by a more stable, but still capped existence of no immense highs, then stop beating yourself up over "not being able to escape" and learn to love the indulgence without guilt. The guilt is holding you back from being able to experience the beauty of the BNWO in its purest, untamed form, and the happiness from submitting to it.
Lots of love to y'all, and keep gooning xx
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