u/Cheap_Finger1704

Yup, another 19 year old girl who found herself in this situation. I don't know what's wrong with me or why I'm doing this, well I kind of do, but basically I've been talking with this older guy and having a sexual relationship with him. He's 54. He really does seem to care about me, and like he wants to help me out, giving me advice about health, friendships, college etc. I kinda feel like a fucking idiot and don't know how it's truly affecting me, but I kinda am attached but don't want to keep this being a thing. Also... he's planning on paying my rent for the next year. I genuinely don't know what to do and am really mad at myself for even getting into this situation. I never thought I would, and am extremely embarrassed and feeling really weird about it. Any advice? Is this going to be something that messes me up long term?