Wearing diapers has helped keep me sober (not even kidding)
TL;DR: diapers are saving my sobriety
So in January, I had to go to rehab for a month because I had a serious marijuana addiction that was severely impacting my health and well-being (mental health issues, horrible stomach problems, and it was taking over my life, I was unemployed for months, and I just couldn’t stop using on my own). I also had issues with binge drinking and benzos but marijuana was my primary drug of choice.
In early February I got out of my rehab program, attended meetings, got sponsored, began working steps, and continued my rather disappointing job search. Life still kept being difficult but I no longer had substances to turn to. And I hadn’t really found anything to replace my heavy weed consumption with. My psychiatrist and therapist have both asked me: “what have you replaced weed with?” And for a while I wasn’t sure, but now I realize that diapers of all things have helped keep me sober.
I once again turned back to wearing diapers and being in little space, this time more frequently. I have been obsessed with diapers my whole life, probably since at least the age of 9-10 years old. I have found in my life that whenever things get difficult I turn back to diapers, and decided that maybe I should start wearing more often.
Over the last month, I went from wearing maybe 1 diaper every couple weeks or so to wearing 3-5 diapers a week. And I found that diapers and littlespace give me the feeling of release, relaxation, escape, and sensory relief that I used to find in marijuana, alcohol, and benzos. It’s not the same as being high but it allows me the refuge from the difficulties of life without destroying the life I’ve worked so hard to build. Also I’ve been experimenting with some diaper play with my partner which has been nice too.
Now I recognize that a lot of people like to get high and wear diapers and in my opinion there’s nothing wrong with that as long as you can reasonably control your use. I couldn’t and needed help.
It also helped me get over the shame I had around diapers and I realized that diapers don’t hurt anyone. Nobody has ever overdosed on diapers. Nobody has gotten arrested for being diapered while driving. Nobody has ever gotten shot or stabbed over a diaper deal gone bad.
I now have 128 days of sobriety. Diapers aren’t a replacement for rehab, meetings, and other ways of staying sober. But damn, do they help.
Any other sober Littles or DL’s have a similar experience?