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Honestly i was sorta butthurt lately thinking I’ll never get the rush of a high heart rate with chewable teeth ever again. I just took my first few rips after a month clean and it feels like I just lost my virginity ngl. Not one more time after tonight tho, I think that’s the only chance anyone will have any time you decide to hang out one last time… hopefully you don’t see me post after tonight, cuz that will mean I’m back to fantasizing about it 24/7 along with thinking about doing nothing but ratchet sexual shit that I would never consider doing clean. Anyone else experience that? After hours of porn and jerkin it, I have had a moment or two when I start thinkin “ yea I might let a dude suck my dick. It’s just a mouth right?” (Ladies it’d be nice if you’d fix this for me and other dudes and just start being game to offer up a suck a little easier than the whole wine and dine scenario for a reward of a 5 min mediocre blowjob that I’ll probably have to finish myself off later cuz you didn’t go until completion…). Anyways, To be clear I’ve never had the thought of sucking a dick on meth or clean that would be crossing the line. Just thought I’d leave a big ramble one last time lol y’all be safe

Just curious who I’m talking too. When you guys say that you’ve been doing meth for months or for years what exactly do you mean? If you say you’ve been on it for a month, do you mean you’ve done it 5-10 times in that month or are you doing it every single day that month? I immediately hit my pipe before I stand up to even take a piss in the morning or whatever time of day it is… it scares the hell out of me thinking of waking up and not having it there. I’ve seen posts of ppl on here suggesting to others to take a few days or a week off and then start doing it again and that just sounds insane to me. Im wondering about the best way to go about quitting myself, cold turkey sounds scary, I’ve done it once and I’m hoping that I can find a better way to do it other than that again. Any thoughts?