[F4M] I want to lose so bad it scares me
I've been thinking about this for months. Reading posts. Watching videos. Imagining what it would feel like to be completely overpowered by someone who actually knows what they're doing. Not roleplay fighting. Not taking turns. Real struggle. Real resistance. Real losing.
I'm not new to submission but I'm new to this. The idea of someone pinning me down and making me tap out because I physically cannot keep going — that does something to my brain that nothing else does.
I don't want soft. I don't want you to let me win. I don't want you to check in every thirty seconds asking if I'm okay. I want you to dominate me so completely that I don't have to think anymore. Just fight. Just lose. Just feel.
Here's what I'm looking for: someone who actually enjoys winning. Not someone who's going to be weird about it or feel bad after. Someone who gets off on making me submit. Someone who will hold me down until I stop struggling and then hold me down a little longer just to prove a point.
I'm 5'4, about 125 lbs, not weak but not strong. I work out but I'm not a fighter. I'll push back. I'll try to escape. I'll make you work for it. But at the end, I want to lose. I want you to earn that win and then I want you to take what you earned.
Kinks: wrestling, pins, restraints, being overpowered, being talked down to during, losing by a lot. Limits: blood, scat, permanent damage, anything illegal.
If you message me, tell me your experience level with this kind of roleplay, what you look like physically, and how you'd get me to tap out. Not a whole scene. Just the first move. I'll know if you're serious.
I'll be playing as myself. You can be yourself too. I don't need a character. I need someone who actually wants to beat me.