I thought i was done with anything sissy, but a couple of weeks ago something came over me, i hopped on grindr and a ended up chatting with a dom i’d spoken too before, the usually stuff really and it felt so good.
There was a difference this time though, i ended up leaking while still soft, no touching, just reading what he was saying to me. I tried to fight it, but once it had happened i wanted it more. I’d even open his conversations for the first time in days in anticipation, then feel myself twitch and start leaking all over myself. There’s just something so addictive to it, i couldn’t stop.
Fast forward to now and it’s been so hard to resist, i keep trying my hardest not to cum just so i can feel myself leak involuntarily. Thats let me down a whole other hole though, and i think im close to breaking again, i even stayed up to 4am this morning talking to a different dom, one so much more degrading, the kind i know is bad news but fuck it was so hot. Then today, being alone for the first time in a while i couldn’t stop myself dressing up, locking and even sliding a plug in. So far i’ve never met anyone in person, but god i came so close to it today, if he hasn’t flaked last minute i genuinely thing i’d be getting used right now instead of typing this.
I know i might just end up in the same cycle again, somehow resist u till i cum and decide this isn’t for me, but part of me really doesn’t want to, it just feels too good to be like this. Sorry for the ramble, but i just really felt the need to share 😅