u/DahliaLives

As someone who's always preferred having a physical copy of my media, I've really enjoyed the rise of the analog trend. People are buying 8 tracks and vinyl and getting nostalgic as hell about the music and movies they adored back before streaming was big. Now Y2K and early 2000's fashion is worming its way back into the mainstream, and I only expect it will gain more popularity. I was recently gifted a bunch of Guillermo Del Toro movies on Blu-ray, and after straining my eyes watching them all back to back (because they're so Damn PRETTY) I must ask the question! What's your favorite piece of Physical Media you own? Disks, vinyls, tapes, books, whatever! What is it and why are you so proud of it?

I've been accused of "Friendzoning" guys before, more than once. It was a strange thing: I thought we were hanging out because we enjoyed each other's company. He thought if he earned enough points I'd have to let him fuck me. Nothing we did was what I'd consider intimate, but he'd convinced himself my every move was designed to seduce him, drive him crazy. I'd never even considered it. More than once when this happened, I was in a relationship! I thought my boundaries were clear, that what I wanted was clear. I was wrong, obviously. I was so surprised by how angry they seemed to be in the end. It was as if all that time was wasted if they couldn't get their dicks wet. I felt used, like they only valued me for the pussy they hadn't even begun to earn. The worst part was I loved spending that time together before they made up their minds that they could earn it.

I realized later I could spot these types of guys if I looked hard enough. The pointed compliments, the plausibly deniable flirting, the way they'd trip over themselves to spend time with me but were never brave enough to ask me out, etc.. Sometimes I'd shoot them down right away and sometimes I'd give them a chance, but... Deep down a part of me wanted to play the game a little. I wanted that attention, that validation! And felt so bad about it!

Finding spaces like this online opened up a whole new reality for me! The idea that there are people who end up on the other side of this equation and love being there was so wild! I've been in cuckold/open relationships before, but this is different. This is a whole other level. You want to fuck me, almost desperately, but you know you never will because you don't deserve to... And you're still here? Still loving me, my mind and my body, that you'll never claim? That's satisfying in a way that feels sinful. It feels like something I've denied wanting a million times. But why lie? Why deny myself if you're just as happy worshiping me as I am being worshiped?

Would you be happy if you never saw me naked? Never got to kiss me? If I knew you dreamed about me and strung you along for my own satisfaction? What if I talked to you the same way I would a girl friend? About my days and my dates and all the wicked ways I wanted to fill them both? What if you wanted that? Would you watch my chest heave as I laugh, beg me to tell all, knowing the whole time you'd get nothing out of it but a smile and an ache for more? What would you do to stay that close? How far could I push you? How far would you let me?

All this just gets to me sometimes, so just know that you are sweet and appreciated beta babies!