Cheated and I am having mixed feelings
Hey idk how to start but it happened last year at the beginning of the winter which is exactly november I was staying in my home town i am an 23 yrs old guy I have high sexual energy like i am fucking horny all the time I am in a 4 years old relationship,
my gf and I kind of in a long distance relationship so after finishing my clg I went to banglore to do an course it was new city new vibes kind of excited so I joined the course in August so i met a girl over there in October she's from Bangalore itself she was also in relationship we kind of talked went to parks movies etc at the same time me and my gf were on bad terms so i was kinda pissed at her ,
so one fine night in November while we were walking in the park while talking she kinda pinched me funnily and I did the same and she bit me on my shoulder i did bite her on her cheeks but for a moment I kind of stopped but my lips were still on her cheeks she didn't pushed me back later i am hearing the deep breaths of her I was kind of hard eventually i kissed her she didn't pushed my it was kind of exciting at the same time I felt like I am doing something wrong kissing someone who isn't my gf .
later i pushed her away I said sorry and I left awkwardly when I reached my room she texted me saying that was awkward but the Convo built the heat we started sexting she told me she liked kissing me and wish you hadn't left and that was the moment I made the mistake I told her come down I'll take you to my room on the way to her i bought condoms and I've talked her to my room and we started kissing so badly she touched my dick which I wasn't expecting and later asked me to fuck her but I don't know what happened I was kinda felt off away from the moment .
my gf came into mind and my dick isn't hard anymore I said sorry I can't and I kind of stayed silently on top of her like that without saying anything but she was horny after 10 minutes she started kissing me on my lips and my neck and moaning and told me that put it inside while rubbing my dick with her vagina .
so at the end I fucked her and the expressions of her were so hot later she ride me and I finished on her stomach we cuddled but my mind was full of guilt saying sorry to my gf In my mind we took a bath she kinda washed my back and cum off my dick later i kinda stopped talking to her and blocked her deleted her number I know it was an mistake but it happened. but whenever I think about that I am feeling horny and having guilt at the same time .