Hello the title says it all I am in my 20s, studying. It was years ago but it is one of my secrets I dont tell anyone. Something from the past that I tell myself that I should just bury. Right now I am not burying it but rather I am standing up for what I did. I did what I did and it was not always rainbows and butterflies. I am not here for solicitations or self promotion of what I did. I am here for self expression. To the girls who are here and have the same cycle, i hope you see yourself for what you are doing. Since anonymous tayo it wont matter. I am just a fellow redditor saying my part of the story.
Just a disclaimer I didnt get paid or i didnt pay for anything. I didnt get hurt or hurt anyone. I did do wild things but not that wild. I didnt do the deed sa lahat kase why would i, nor i didnt get any sakit from it (i got tested and i am protected by my guardian angel xd). I am also not inviting anyone by writing this story.
It was something I did out of curiosity and the attention I wanted to get from a guy. I am not advocating or promoting it to anyone because it has tainted me. It was fast and easy, it felt close to having the real thing the male gaze. Along the way, in reality I broke down, i became unstable and impulsive. It was a cycle I liked a boost of climax and a feeling of high. Each adventure was a thrill I like to conquer. Each people I met had a story, had a character, had a secret and well at the end of the day it is all that. I liked the pleasure and lust from it. I am forever thankful to those ppl i met because I am who I am because of those experiences. It is something temporary and unsafe that could either make you or break you. Not for the weak hearted, no baggages and no more connections thats the reality not knowing if they seem what they say to be.
To those who I met before, hello! Maybe andyan pa sila maybe lurker parin or maybe an active poser.
Today marks as a reminder that you can break the chain, people do change. The cycle that felt like something you cant escape is something that can hone you to become better. Change is inevitable. Kamusta kaya natin toh