u/Educational_Peace759

I’ve been sitting on this for a while and need to get it off my chest. Looking back, I’m not sure if I should feel embarrassed or if I was just "embracing" a weird situation.
I was a late bloomer—physically, I looked much younger than I was. I had zero body hair and a very "smooth" build until very recently (I actually had to start hormone injections just to kickstart puberty). Being a bi bottom, this made me feel pretty vulnerable, and my senior roommate definitely picked up on that.
It started almost like a "dare" or a power dynamic in our dorm. He’d "encourage" me to dance naked in front of him. The first few times, it felt like a weird CNC (consensual non-consent) situation where I felt I had to do it, but after the 4th or 5th time, something shifted. I stopped feeling like a victim and started leaning into it. I actually began to enjoy the attention and the "show" aspect of it.
The wildest part was when his friend visited once. Instead of stopping, I did it in front of both of them.
Now that I’m finally maturing physically and seeing changes in my body, I’m looking back at those dorm days wondering if I did "good" by embracing it or if I was just caught up in a strange power trip. Either way, it’s a part of my history I’ve never told anyone else.