Hi everyone, throwaway for obvious reasons. I need to get this off my chest because I'm spiraling hard and feel like absolute shite.
Me and the girls went on a beach holiday last week, sun, sea, and way too much drink. I've been with my fella for nearly 3 years and we've been solid, or so I thought. Night out I decided to go full tart l freshly shaved smooth, fake tan glowing, tight little dress that barely covered my arse, sky high heels, and a full face of glam makeup. Hair down, the whole works. Felt like a proper slut walking out the apartment but I was buzzing.
We hit the club and I got absolutely wasted. Like can't-see-straight, stumbling drunk. That's when I met this group of older English lads on a stag do. Proper cocky bunch, late 30s/early 40s. They clocked me straight away and started negging me hard taking the piss out of my ginger hair, calling me a proper little tart for being out dressed like that, asking where my boyfriend was and laughing when I admitted I had one back home.
They kept buying me shots, one of them gave me a cheeky ciggie outside and I was proper flirting back even though my phone was blowing up with messages from the girls and my fella. Eventually I lost my mates in the club and was too drunk to care. Next thing I know I'm in a taxi back to their Airbnb with them.
As soon as the door closed they were on me. Made me drop to my knees still in my heels and dress and suck each of them off one by one while they called me a dirty cheating ginger whore. Kept asking "how do you think your fella would feel watching his girlfriend gag on English cock?" Proper degrading, slapping my face, pulling my hair, choking me on it. I was soaking.
Then they ran me through. Three of them took turns (and sometimes together) for what felt like hours. Heels stayed on, dress pulled up round my waist. They were so rough choking me, slapping my tits and arse, yanking my hair while they fucked me in every hole. I kept weakly saying to pull out because I'm not on the pill right now but they just laughed and called me a stupid slut. All three pumped me full of cum, unprotected. I could feel it dripping down my thighs.
After they were done they kicked me out at like 5am, told me to get an Uber back to my apartment like the used whore I was. I sat in the back of the car still covered in their mess, makeup ruined, spiraling the whole way home.
My fella has been texting me how much he misses me and I feel like the worst person alive. Can't stop replaying it though. The shame is eating me but part of me wants it again. I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me.
Anyway, that's my confession. Be gentle please.