u/EfficientApple9882

Its evening now, and i just finished my 2 weeks supply of concerta 3 hours ago. I first took it yesterday morning at 4.30am, and i kept redosing every few hours once the effects wore off.

Now that i have used it all up, i feel like a complete waste of human life. Why did I have to take a stimulant? Im not even in school right now. I know in some cases it can be used as an off-label for depression, but not at an astronomically large dose. And i wasnt planning to have recreational fun with friends at a party or something because... i got no fucking real friends. I'm a loner who rots mostly in his bedroom.

It was my first time on stimulants since November 2025 so my tolerance was definitely rly low, but i kept redosing and redosing like its candy. It gave me a few side effects like anxiety and vasoconstriction but it eventually went away with the help of lorazepam. I also didnt sleep at all this whole time, and right now im at a pub alone with a pint of beer because im a proper loser.

this is anecdotal ofc but 3 hours ago i took 36mg concerta. It was my first time taking it since over a year ago (the last stim i took was vyvanse in Nov 2025 btw). At 1 hour later i took another 36mg cus i felt nothing, and the effects finally kicked in. However it only lasted for less than 3 hours, so i took another both 36mg about few mins ago.

Okay im obviously a huge dumbass when it comes to stimulant use cus i keep abusing it, and now i can feel my kidneys hurting a little even after hydrating myself a lot😭 I initally wanted vyvanse but i chose concerta anyways cus its cheaper and less addictive. In the past methylphenidate drugs used to work decently but after a while i had to stop cus it hurt my kidneys so much and the crash was super super horrible.

Now im pretty stimmed af, i def made a bad mistake without taking it as prescribed lol and im afraid of having a meltdown later.

Can anyone relate to this? Whats ur take on methylphenidate?