I met my ex while I was rolling and I dont know how I feel after it.
Im kind of shaked by this event and I feel like sharing it with someone, maybe some of yall can relate.
Basically the situation was that my friendgroup have rented a bar to play some uptempo and hardstyles and it is always so amazing. I was feeling the vibe so we all decided to take some X and we kind of went off the rails with it. I took a lot and was geeking pretty solid.
Later that night in like the middle of the evening my ex has decided to come check it out with her guy friend. I didnt really expect her attending, we broke up like 2 months ago, had sex a couple of times which I regret and the last time I saw her was last week when she told me she cant be friends with me anymore and that we would stop all contact all together. She still has feelings for me and I do aswell honestly, but the dynamic was incompatible, we both triggered our own wounds by our behaviours and it just became toxic to a point where I had to end it.
So I am suprised when I see her smoking at the front door with him. I come over to greet them and she just gives me this disgusted look when she saw that I was rolling, I talked to the guy a bit and then went on my way.
Later I meet her at the bar, I come over to say hi and how she is doing and she just says "good" and gives me this annoyed look. So I leave to go to my friends, feeling kind of agitated that she is there, but whatever. Then we went to smoke and she comes over too and the vibe just feels off, she is just meanmugging me so I make a face at her back, then she starts smiling in a way that seems like she is enjoying that Im upset. I say nothing and she eventually leaves us.
Then later Im resting on the couch because I felt sleepy and she comes over and sits next to me and shows me a poem she wrote for me, I didnt understand it at all because my brain wasnt working. Then she says that she is leaving and stands up waiting for me to hug her, so I did. She has a last smoke before leaving and I come by to go to the toilet and hear her saying something like "I cant do this anymore" and when I pass by I can see her eyes tear up. I just say goodbye and go on my way.
Look I understand that breakups are difficult and me enjoying rolling with my friends might seem like I dont care but I do, what I dont understand is why would she act this way towards me when I am in a vunerable place, especially at an event she I would be attending 100%.
It just left me reminiscing on the whole relationship and I miss her a lot, I cant get out of my head the way she was dancing so smoothly it was so hypnotizing. I just want to text her to send me that poem again and ask if she is mad at me and get some closure, but its not right.
Do yall have any stories where you met your ex while rolling?