u/ElectronicBat7295

Right, so I don't know which subreddit to go so I am going here. I hope, if you can, to try and help me and do it for me, i guess...

Right, so I want to try roleplaying with someone. This is actually my first time to try it.

The requirements:

- Male

- European (I dont mind if you're from Russia too :p)

- 21 and above

- good at being a Dom

The play I wanted to try:

- CNC (lol) like I want it to be as dark as it could get... literally make it unhinged, and depraved..

- Literally, unhinged thing, from getting kidnapped, to being forced HAHAHA

I will explain more, so in the mean time, I hope we can get to know each other to make sure that we are compatible to do it together anndd I hope that you will be great at it and not being too cringe haha

So I will bd waiting over here for your commnets or dms hehe

Right, so I don't know which subreddit to go so I am going here. I hope, if you can, to try and help me and do it for me, i guess...

Right, so I want to try roleplaying with someone. This is actually my first time to try it.

The requirements:

- Male

- European (I dont mind if you're from Russia too :p)

- 21 and above

- good at being a Dom

The play I wanted to try:

- CNC (lol)

- Literally, unhinged thing, from getting kidnapped, to being forced HAHAHA

I will explain more, so in the mean time, I hope we can get to know each other to make sure that we are compatible to do it together anndd I hope that you will be great at it and not being too cringe haha

So I will bd waiting over here for your commnets or dms hehe

Right, so I don't know which subreddit to go so I am going here. I hope, if you can, to try and help me and do it for me, i guess...

Right, so I want to try roleplaying with someone. This is actually my first time to try it.

The requirements:

- Male

- European (I dont mind if you're from Russia too :p)

- 21 and above

- good at being a Dom

The play I wanted to try:

- CNC (lol)

- Literally, unhinged thing, from getting kidnapped, to being forced HAHAHA

I will explain more, so in the mean time, I hope we can get to know each other to make sure that we are compatible to do it together anndd I hope that you will be great at it and not being too cringe haha

So I will bd waiting over here for your commnets or dms hehe

I am horny after being denied for 7 days (i haven't had my released yet) I was supposed to try and edge myself 4 times before I can earn the permission to ask for an orgasm. I only managed to have 1 edge and slept after that cause I was feeling heartbroken 😭

But I am mad and furious. I found out about something which made me very angry but I don't want them to know... Literally, they made me angry! And have less desire to want to be submissive now.

so now.. I'm skeptical on whether I should take a break or.. i don't know. My mind is blank and I hate it!

I want to cry 😭

I was given a task to touch myself to 3 edges without receiving a reward point from the obedience app. I did it because when I woke up in the morning, I was feeling needy and my kitty was twitching and I asked my Sir if I could play with myself. We played for a little the night before and I wasn't allowed to edge myself or I will be punished. Hence why I was horny the next morning.

Sir told me to edge myself and write a journal entry so when he wakes up the next day, he can read it.

This was my journal:

I did it the moment Sir allowed me to touch myself, I know I was feeling horny but I can't seem to get to an edge. Probably because Sir is already sleeping 🥹 so I had no one to talk to or play with. It took me about 10 minutes to just play with myself without feeling anything. I was teasing my clit. Then, I went scrolling through reddit but nothing turns me on. So I closed my eyes and imagined Sir's hand on my clit. Gosh, got me close in under 3 mins. The second one took me just less than one minute. And the third one was quite fast too. Gosh, it went from way too slow then too fast 😭 I wanted to touch myself more but I can't because Sir only told me to do it 3 times in a row. That's it. Therefore, I'll be over here waiting for Sir to wake up again hehe

The whole day while I was waiting for Sir to wake up was too stressful. My kitty was and still is twitching. I can't wait to touch myself and maybe edge a little or more 🤭 because I have been a good girl for my Sir. I have been denied for 4 days now 🥳 i can't wait for Sir to allow me an orgasm 😍

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Okay, currently doing this just after I did my daily edging (and being on no-touch now). To be honest, I dont know if i can think because I really want to touch myself 😭 but I've been given task to do this, then I get to touch myself hehe

This is my take on denial, submission, and myself for the past few weeks.

Denial:

This is my first time to be on a denial with someone fully. Usually, I couldn't hold on for more than 2 days because cumming feels too good. However, now I've been trained to love denial. Right now, I'm on day one of being denied after earning an orgasm from being denied for 9 days. Post-orgasm effect has made me become more hornier and everything feels too much or less simultaneously. All the teasing and task is making me crazy horny 😅 denial is quite hard to do because all I want to do is cumming as many as i could but when i get over the edge and cum, it doesn't feel as nice as being not to cum 😳 maybe i shouldn't say it like that or he won't let me cum 😐

Submission:

The things that I was / am willing to do just to be a good girl and to be obedient is getting stronger. Well, before this I was a little bit bratty but then when he punished me, it slowly made me be more submissive to him. Literally, it made me very wet because I was given a task from my dom. Every little thing he did and said made me want more because he's very gentle and commanding too. He's very understanding and doesn't push me is it's too much. I love a dom that is soft. Literally, I can get on the edge on anything he tells me to do because my pleasure comes from him. Now, everytime he gave an orgasm, i can only do it one time because it was too much. I fell asleep after every session with him 😂 it was really too good

Myself:

It has come to a conclusion that I love the feeling of being denied, especially when I get to an edge. I just wish that I can cum 😭 however, I want to make my dom happy and he said that he loves it when I don't control my cum because all of me belongs to him. He loves to control my mind, body, and soul.nAnd I fully accept it because I love when he does all that for me. I don't need fo think and just do what he tells me to do. What's more is that, I can't touch myself with permission because it doesn't feel good and I feel like I'm becoming someone new 😂 because he told me before, that he's going to shape me into an edging denial slut hehe i guess it is worth it 🤭

(I need to finish this but i can't think of anything else. I hope this is the right message 🥵)