u/Emergency-Lie-2377

Hey everyone,

I honestly never thought I’d post something like this, but I’m losing my mind. For as long as I can remember I saw myself as the loyal “good partner,” the one who would never cheat, never even think about it. I kept all my dirty thoughts locked away because that’s what good girls are supposed to do, right? Deep down I’ve always fantasized about being fucked by strangers, sometimes multiple guys at once, but I stayed quiet and submissive about it. I figured those fantasies would stay buried forever.

Then one night my partner told me about a dream where he saw me getting fucked by another guy. At first I was shocked, but when we were in bed and he started describing it again, something just “clicked”. I made him repeat exactly what he said… and I came instantly, harder than I ever have with him before. That moment changed everything.

Before that night I didn’t always cum during sex. Now I cum every single time, usually multiple times, just from him telling me his dirty fantasies. I get so horny, I make him expand on them more and more every time. How other men are fucking me, making me cum over and over in every position. How he watches. How he strokes. How I kiss this handsome stranger. I picture it so clearly it feels like I’m actually there living it.

I’ve changed a lot since then. I feel way more confident and sexual. I’ve become much more vocal and dominating in bed (and sometimes even outside the bedroom). I tell him exactly what I want now and he loves it. Our sex is insanely hot and I feel sexier than ever.

The biggest change, I think is with my dildo. It used to feel like it was him, my partner’s perfect dick, familiar and loving. Now I need it all the time, but I can’t get myself to picture him anymore. When I do, my libido completely dies, which I don’t get because I love him and want him inside of me. But my desire for a new hot stranger is so much stronger and it grows by the hour. When I use it, I close my eyes and can’t help imagining it’s a big muscular stranger with a thick fat cock absolutely destroying my pussy in ways he never has. I ride it while telling my partner exactly what this stranger is doing to me, how he’s stretching and ruining me, and I make my partner stroke himself while I do it. The power rush is addictive.

Now I have these constant thoughts all day long. I get randomly wet thinking about actually feeling a new man inside me, about cheating and getting fucked by strangers. The fantasies are so strong and they hit me out of nowhere. I know my partner wants this really badly too, which makes it even hotter… but I don’t want to actually cheat on him. I want it to happen the right way, with his full excitement and consent. It’s this weird mix of guilt, thrill, and craving that I can’t shake.

Has anyone else felt this exact switch flip? How did you deal with the all-day horny thoughts and the strong urge to just go cheat? How did you move from the intense fantasies into actually exploring it together safely? I don’t know how much longer I can take this without spreading my legs at a random stranger. It’s gotten so bad that I can’t talk to any guys without picturing how big they are. I’d really love to hear your experiences and advice.

Thanks for reading ❤️