u/EmergencyBuilder1247

Getting off benzos for a bit rn and im off my tapper and the last few days have been hell the first 2-3 days felt just like a fog completely dissociate for myself and the world days fade into nights like nothing and I just don't feel real than on day 3 the anxiety hit me from going outside and feeling like everyone is looking at me like a stick out like a big ugly thumb ans second guessing everything i say evan with my closet friends and my family like everything i say is stupid or embarrassing that day 4 the extreme insomnia 48 hours with many 2-3 hours and the rest of tne time im laying in bed tossing and tuning hot and cold sweets and than tbe horrible anxiety that seems to stem from nothing just an overwhelming feeling of doom i close my eyes and my mind just takes off "how am I gonna pay bills" "are my cats dying" like these things aren't really problems for me I have enough money to get by my cats are healthy my kitten stove is off but ky midn is still on calculating anything and everything that could possibly go wrong.im on day 6 now and haven't slept in like 48 hours with just a couple naps here and there im wondering if anyone has any suggestions on things i can mix together to knock myself out for like 12-18 hours honestly 8-10 hours would be fine i just want sleep real deep sleep where im not still aware of how uncomfortable I am in my bed i have melatonin gabapentin ( im already takeing gabapentin) clonidine nyqull benadryl buspar ans somewhere in ky house there is saraqul but I can't find it im at tbe point that im just gonna take all of it and pray for sleep bit if anyone knows what works best in this situation or has recommendations please lmk and if your planning on telling me to get more xanax to sleep just don't im trying to get off it fir a few months and give my body a reset and its to accessible for me and like I really want this to end and im trying so hard to not call my doc and have him refill my script

Day 5 I believe since I got off my benzo tapper I went down from takeing 6-8 pharmaceutical 2mg alprazolam bars a day and i took my last .5mgs about 5 days ago i don't really know tho days have felt like a blur since I stopped days fade into each other but what I do know is that the last 5 ish days I have felt like am idiot with anything I do i say something and feel so stupid my anxiety is killing me I walk out in public and feel like an ugly weirdo I hate this gabapentin helps a tiny bit but not much

So for the past 3 months I have been prescribed a high dose of alprazolam (xanax) for panic attacks and anxiety brought up by a recent assault where i was attacked by a large man who was drunk and high on meth after I told him to leave and stop banging on the doors to my apartment complex. He tackled me to the ground where we fought for a moment until he stabbed me with a sharp rusty metal pick. After that I was struggling with extreme anxiety terrible panic attacks and horrible nightmares so my doctor put me on 2mgs of xanax as needed up to 4 times a day and than it went up to 6 times a day than 8 and once it got to 8 I talked to my doctor and we both decided it would be a good idea for me to tapper down to a lower dose but after awhile I decided to go all the way off and stay off for a minimum of 1 month if not longer or forever I am only going back if I truly need to but anyways today is my last day im down to .25mgs ive been at the dose for 7 days now and tomorrow if my first day i will not be taking any the withdrawal hasn't been that bad but my doctor said that i may not feel anything until after I completely stop so my question is for anyone that has done a taper before what should I expect to feel over the next month?