Did I disobey?
Feeling afraid to tell my partner...
- I cannot remember the rule if it was no touching of my clit or if it was no pleasing myself without permission or no orgasms whatsoever.
- Being disciplines is so painful (I know it is supposed to be for that very reason)
I work so hard at pleasing my partner. It brings me pleasure knowing he is proud of me for being good and disciplined. Also, he that told me during lectures that he does not enjoy punishing me. He remarks on how having to complete a punishment takes away time we have together and happy. I believe him.
Last weekend, he was asleep next to me early in the morning. My body felt on its own...aroused, laying face down on the bed. I squeezed, like a kegel, and it felt...good. I kept doing my "exercises" and I knew it felt good but I didn't think it was that good. Granted it had been a while since we had sex; about a week...
Long story short: I came.
Fuck. I don't know what to do.
He hasn't been consistent as the dominate one in our relationship...I am all over the place.
Please advise.
UPDATE: I sent him this post.