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i’m bored listening to music. no sexual stuff pls. i had a horrible come up and now im flying. i talk too much though be warned

it’s been 22 mins and my heart rate is 150 i’m shaking and my pupils are dilated and i feel sick. i feel like im gonna have a panic attack or some shit i’ve never had this on mdma before. as i was writing this i started feeling kinda good but im still freaked out its been 26 mins. my hands are starting to tingle

i think i took 300mg but i might’ve been more

edit: i can barely see straight cuz one of my eyes are inwards and i keep forgetting what was saying

trying coke for the first time. got a gram. can i have 50-70mg of coke today without my roll being slightly duller tommorrow?

will my roll be 100% unaffected? if its slightly affected i wont do the test dose

i’ve heard coke mostly acts on dopamine but also acts slightly on seratonin. and mdma uses a bit of dopamine too

by the way i’m not talking about combining them in the same night. i’ve heard not to do mdma the day after the coke because it can dull the effects. so i’ll do it the other way around.

if i do the mdma, how long should i wait until i can do coke and get close to full effects? 1 day, 2 days, 3 days, 4+?

last year when i was 16 i was doing a fair bit of mdma. 400mg initial dose and 200mg redose after about 5 hours sometimes. i would do this every 1-2 weeks. sometimes 2 days in a row. i used about 2.6g in 2-ish months. then i took a 2 month break and did another gram+ over 2 weeks. had like 4 sessions

then i quit drugs at the end of october. at first thoughts would go out my head and my memory was shit, i would stutter and stuff too.

in late jan after about 3 months of abstinence i felt a big change. i started getting old memories 2-3 times per day, idk if this was something related to my brain recovering or just random. but simultaneously i felt much more clear headed and it felt like my brain was recovering in terms of having better memory and cognitive abilities.

i haven’t felt much change since then and it’s now mid may, so 6.5 months of abstinence. i think my brain is pretty much where it was before i went stupid with mdma but obviously there is no way to tell, maybe im like 80% of the way.

i’m thinking of getting a gram to spread out over the year. or maybe even just a couple sessions and throw the rest away. i wouldn’t go over 250mg per session, and i wouldn’t let myself do it less than 2 months apart.

my main question is, would it possibly set me back in terms of progress of my brain recovering, and IF i am still recovering, would it end my recovery prematurely? or just slow it? would it not affect recovery at all if i’m responsible? i know there probably isnt a solid answer for this but im just curious.