u/Jelly-Baby-8466

I have a Sir and a Daddy who I really am in love with.

Something happened last week where my Sir had to sort out something very serious. We are both Christian so he's praying about it.

I've been doing my best to keep obeying his rules. He's asked me to be patient while he works out what he has to do.

I feel gutted. I'm finding it hard to keep obeying him when he's not in contact. I feel like a clock that's losing its tick, like I'm slowing down without him.

If it doesn't work out I know I'll be ok. I like like him so much and feel lost without him.

I can't talk to my friends about this. I'm fretting about it and feel like I'm pining for him. 😭

I've been obeying Daddy and losing weight. I've been taking the herbal supplements he wants me to take to help me to be healthy. He wants me fit so he can breed me!

I'm so hot for my Daddy. My boobs are always swollen, and I'm so wet for him! (I hope that's OK to say).

We are long distance for now. I keep thinking about how he kissed me last week. It was my first experience of kinky stuff.

Sometimes it's hard to obey Daddy too. I love him so much. I am trying to be a good girl for him. I'm trying so hard to be a sweet obedient girl for him.

Thank you for reading this. I can't talk to my friends about being submissive.

I've never done bdsm before as such. I had a man choke me in a first kiss which scared me and made me cry.

I've been talking to my daddy for a few weeks now.

Yesterday he kissed me for the first time. He slapped my boobs (I asked him to do that). He pulled my panties down and spanked my bum.

He put pressure around my throat. It didn't scare me. He pinned me down by my wrists. It calmed me so much.

I sucked his fingers. I felt very owned, especially when he pinned be down.

I've had sexual trauma before. I knew I was safe with Daddy. He did check up on me to see if it felt good, and that he wasn't hurting me too much. I have health issues.

I've been scared of domestic discipline but now I think I'll enjoy it. It calmed me down. Being pinned down calmed me down knowing I was in safe hands.

I just wanted to share this as I've been so nervous. It was such a great experience. My first real bdsm eIxperience. :)