u/MyShamefulSissy

I’d like to preface that this account is from before I worked with a therapist to get away from porn, but this is the only other account I have to post in an nsfw sub like this lol. I have not consumed any cuckold porn before, but I was introduced to the idea after some research online about how I was feeling.

I (24M) have an amazing girlfriend (24F) who I love and adore and absolutely want to give the world too.

For awhile now, I’ve had these thoughts and feelings in the bedroom. I think she would enjoy having sex with another man, and that I’d enjoy watching that happen, and seeing her pleasure.

Our sex life is fine as it is, but I think my own shortcomings are what are leading me towards this fantasy? To be frank, I’m quite small. Only way for us to engage in PIV is if she’s on top. I can’t even get into her in doggy because she’s got some great glutes from her time in collegiate track and cross country. I have extremely low testosterone for someone my age, and have been seeing doctors to find the cause, but I’ve had low erection quality because of that. I also tend to lean more on the submissive side of things, so I do enjoy when she takes the lead a bit more. Based off of how our sex goes, my sex game is not strong and it’s not exactly what she envisions per se.

I guess I just want to know if that this is something that should be explored? Or if I’m just in my head and questioning myself a bit haha. I feel very into the topic, and when I imagine a scenario involving my girlfriend and others, I genuinely get aroused.

One of my greatest fears about opening up to a partner about this kink is that they’ll agree to do it only for me, and not because they’d find enjoyment in it.

I don’t want to pressure someone into a dynamic they don’t genuinely want. What I’m wondering is whether enjoyment of cuckolding can develop naturally in someone who starts out with zero background knowledge of the subject, or maybe if they’re even a little skeptical/against it at first.

For couples where one partner introduced the idea and the other eventually came to enjoy it too; what helped that happen?

I’d especially like to hear from people who were initially unsure but later found their own excitement or affection for the dynamic.

I’m happy to give some background knowledge for my specific case if anyone would find it helpful!

P.s. Sorry for the missing word in the title 😬