u/No-Slice391

So I'm losing my mind a little and need some outside perspective because my friends would absolutely roast me if I told them any of this Throwaway for obvious reasons.

Quick context I'm 25 work at an audit firm in Bangalore About six months ago there was this team outing thing drinks turned into more drinks and I ended up going home with my senior She's 26 joined about a year before me and on the floor she's this very polished very put-together type Soft voice doesn't curse the kind of girl who brings homemade dhokla to share at lunch Aunties love her That kind of energy.

Turns out behind closed doors she's a completely different person We've been hooking up casually since that night No labels no "what are we" talks just texting after 11pm and one of us showing up at the other's place I found out a couple months in that she's on Hinge and has met up with at least two other guys during our thing which I had no business being weird about because we're not exclusive so I just filed it away.

About three weeks ago we were lying in bed and I made a joke about a threesome Half-testing half-curious She didn't laugh it off She said she'd think about it but that she'd want another guy not another girl I'll be honest my ego took a hit for like ten seconds and then I was just... intrigued.

I figured the easiest way to call her bluff was to actually pick someone I scrolled her Hinge with her one night (she let me which should have been a clue) and I picked this African guy late twenties built like he lifted things for a living I genuinely thought she'd say no She said "okay" so fast I almost choked on my drink.

Her birthday was last week the day before she flew out for a Goa trip with her college friends We decided that would be the night She came over around 9 all three of us drank way more than we should have and I'll skip ahead because I don't think anyone wants the small talk part.

She'd dressed up Tight black bodycon the kind that hugs everything black heels she could barely walk in and when things started moving she let me unzip her slowly in front of him Matching black lace underneath the bra with the little scalloped edge thong to match She'd planned this She doesn't wear matching sets for me on a regular Tuesday.

The first time he touched her she froze Like full body locked up for a second and I caught her eye and she just exhaled and that was it she was gone I've never seen her like that with me Six months and I thought I knew what her face looked like when she was into something I didn't She was making sounds I've genuinely never heard from her this broken little "ah ah" thing every time he'd do something with his fingers and when he went down on her she grabbed my hand so hard her nails left marks.

I'll spare the play-by-play but we worked through basically everything Her on her back with him while she had me in her mouth her on her stomach her riding him while I was behind her She came at least three times that I counted and I lost track after that There was a point where she was just shaking and laughing into a pillow and I remember thinking I've never made her laugh like that.

Here's the part that's eating me After we all crashed she slept curled into him Not me My bed my apartment and she put her back to me and her face against his chest.

She left for Goa the next morning That was two days ago She hasn't answered a single text Read receipts are off so I can't even tell if she's seeing them but she's posting on her close friends story drinking coconut water on a beach looking completely fine.

I don't know if she regrets it if she's processing if she's embarrassed if she's angry at me for picking the guy if she's just on vacation and genuinely not thinking about me or if something shifted that night that she doesn't want to look at yet.

Has anyone been on either side of this The silence after I'm not trying to lock her down I just want to know if I broke something or if I need to give her air Any honest takes welcome even the ones that make me look stupid.

Do u think she’s been fucking?