My long lost nudist jo bud :(
31m here, this was two years ago, he was a few years older than me. We met on a nudist page here.
I've been confused about my relationship to other guys for a bit. Just really wanted to have that ultimate intimate bro bond that didn't get into full sex or romance.
He was straight, and new about my confusion.
We were video chatting for a bit about life, struggles. Out of nowhere I get hard, and apologize, embarrassed. I thought it was going to be over tbh. I got hard because we were taking about sex and relationships, not because I wanted 'him'.
Surprisingly he fully understood. Told me not to be embarrassed, and we kept talking. We both wound up stoking in the most absolutely casual way, eventually just talking philosophy and identity.
We came, and it felt SO good, SO calm. Like nothing I ever felt. We didn't want to sleep with each other and we weren't attracted to each other. Just bros in total comfort sharing a moment.
I deactivated because I got nervous about the whole thing. Immediately regretting it, I signed back up the next day. When I reached out apologizing, he didn't accept. Said my deleting was sus. Didn't seem to have an interest in men who were unsure/confused in any way. Which leads me to believe maybe he was nervous too.
Our conversations remain the most 'seen' i had felt in a long long time.