u/No_Macaron_3503

Hey guys,

(I can delete if not allowed, and please reply: people upvote but say nothing 😞 , I'm struggling)

I'm in a relationship with the love of my life (and daddy, I'm ABDL so obviously he's very protective of me) and I'm very submissive. We haven't had sex in a very long time and he's very openly wanking over other guys/writing porn based on them (at first his excuse was feeling protective towards me, but it's became more and more the norm). I've became accepting and am finding the cuck thing very horny (I used to lick his balls over him wanking over girls - and he mentioned being a bull to a cuck being a fantasy of his in the past...but boys, it hits the spot differently)...it's radiating off me and he's been feeling it I know, he keeps making comments about how he mutes his player so I don't hear, and sends me out of the room for him to wank, talks about other twinks all day. I'm completely cool with it, and I have been hinting about telling him something important soon, which he started 'checking on me' for - looking at my laptop to make sure I'm behaving. I am writing him a handwritten letter ...do you think it's good, or is there anything else I can include. I do want him to get horny I admit, and I do want some insight from people who have cucked before on both sides. Not to mention I found an odd snap account linked to his phone number that he seemed defensive about. I hope this is allowed, and I can delete if it isn't! I'm shy obvs, and I'd love someone to tell me if it's a good idea. thankyyouuu.

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Hey Daddy,

I know I really shouldn’t be writing this while you’re busy working… I keep starting it and then deleting it because I feel so silly and embarrassed. But I can’t stop thinking about it today and my head feels all fuzzy and drippy, so I’m just going to send it before I chicken out.

I’ve been really horny and shy lately. I’ve stopped throwing little tantrums about things and I’ve tried to think a lot about what you actually need. I’ve noticed how you wank to other boys more and more… how you mute everything so I don’t hear, how you send me out the room sometimes, and how your bookmarks are full of all those pretty twinks. Every time I see it I get this strange squirmy feeling in my tummy… but instead of getting upset like I used to, it just makes me leak and feel pathetic. I don’t really know how to admit this properly.

It’s made me start having all these embarrassing fantasies. One of them keeps getting stronger even though I feel weird about it. I keep imagining being your soft, useless little cuck baby in nappies while you enjoy other boys. Like… you using my diapers as spunk rags after you’ve cum thinking about them, or even after you’ve fucked them, and then making me wear it all day. Sitting there squirming and rubbing your load against my hole, knowing I’m not enough to get you properly hard anymore. Or crawling over afterwards to clean you up like a pathetic, drippy boy who knows his place.

I even thought it might help with your wanking too. Like having another real twink to look at and model scenes on could give you better inspiration. That part makes me feel even more embarrassed because it sounds like I’m offering to help you get off to other boys… but I can’t stop thinking about it.

I’m sorry if this is too much or weird. I’ve been too shy to say any of this out loud. I just keep leaking and replaying it in my head and I needed to finally tell you. You don’t have to reply or anything… I just wanted you to know.

I’m really red right now and my hands are shaking a bit.

I'm not saying it's everything that dominates my mind when I wank. I still think about all the wrong, dirty stuff we used to talk about. I just can't help where my thoughts have been leaning...and I think you should know. Daddys pleasure comes first

Your shy, drippy little baby xx

Hey guys,

(I can delete if not allowed)

I'm in a relationship with the love of my life (and daddy, I'm ABDL so obviously he's very protective of me) and I'm very submissive. We haven't had sex in a very long time and he's very openly wanking over other guys/writing porn based on them (at first his excuse was feeling protective towards me, but it's became more and more the norm). I've became accepting and am finding the cuck thing very horny (I used to lick his balls over him wanking over girls - and he mentioned being a bull to a cuck being a fantasy of his in the past...but boys, it hits the spot differently)...it's radiating off me and he's been feeling it I know, he keeps making comments about how he mutes his player so I don't hear, and sends me out of the room for him to wank, talks about other twinks all day. I'm completely cool with it, and I have been hinting about telling him something important soon, which he started 'checking on me' for - looking at my laptop to make sure I'm behaving. I am writing him a handwritten letter ...do you think it's good, or is there anything else I can include. I do want him to get horny I admit, and I do want some insight from people who have cucked before on both sides. I hope this is allowed, and I can delete if it isn't! I'm shy obvs, and I'd love someone to tell me if it's a good idea. thankyyouuu.

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Hey Daddy,

I know I really shouldn’t be writing this while you’re busy working… I keep starting it and then deleting it because I feel so silly and embarrassed. But I can’t stop thinking about it today and my head feels all fuzzy and drippy, so I’m just going to send it before I chicken out.

I’ve been really horny and shy lately. I’ve stopped throwing little tantrums about things and I’ve tried to think a lot about what you actually need. I’ve noticed how you wank to other boys more and more… how you mute everything so I don’t hear, how you send me out the room sometimes, and how your bookmarks are full of all those pretty twinks. Every time I see it I get this strange squirmy feeling in my tummy… but instead of getting upset like I used to, it just makes me leak and feel pathetic. I don’t really know how to admit this properly.

It’s made me start having all these embarrassing fantasies. One of them keeps getting stronger even though I feel weird about it. I keep imagining being your soft, useless little cuck baby in nappies while you enjoy other boys. Like… you using my diapers as spunk rags after you’ve cum thinking about them, or even after you’ve fucked them, and then making me wear it all day. Sitting there squirming and rubbing your load against my hole, knowing I’m not enough to get you properly hard anymore. Or crawling over afterwards to clean you up like a pathetic, drippy boy who knows his place.

I even thought it might help with your wanking too. Like having another real twink to look at and model scenes on could give you better inspiration. That part makes me feel even more embarrassed because it sounds like I’m offering to help you get off to other boys… but I can’t stop thinking about it.

I’m sorry if this is too much or weird. I’ve been too shy to say any of this out loud. I just keep leaking and replaying it in my head and I needed to finally tell you. You don’t have to reply or anything… I just wanted you to know.

I’m really red right now and my hands are shaking a bit.

I'm not saying it's everything that dominates my mind when I wank. I still think about all the wrong, dirty stuff we used to talk about. I just can't help where my thoughts have been leaning...and I think you should know. Daddys pleasure comes first

Your shy, drippy little baby xx

Hey guys,

(I can delete if not allowed)

I'm in a relationship with the love of my life (and daddy, I'm ABDL so obviously he's very protective of me). We haven't had sex in a very long time and he's very openly wanking over other guys/writing porn based on them. I've became accepting and am finding the cuck thing very horny (I used to lick his balls over him wanking over girls - and he mentioned being a bull to a cuck being a fantasy of his in the past...but boys, it hits the spot differently)...it's radiating off me and he's been feeling it I know, he keeps making comments about how he mutes his player so I don't hear, and sends me out of the room for him to wank, talks about other twinks all day. I'm completely cool with it, and I have been hinting about telling him something important soon, which he started 'checking on me' for - looking at my laptop to make sure I'm behaving. I am writing him a handwritten letter ...do you think it's good, or is there anything else I can include. I do want him to get horny I admit, and I do want some insight from people who have cucked before on both sides. I hope this is allowed, and I can delete if it isn't! thankyyouuu.

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Hey Daddy,

I know I shouldn’t be sending this while you’re busy working… but I just can’t stop being a naughty, drippy little brat today.

I’ve been getting so horny and embarrassed lately. I love it when you wank to other boys and mute everything so I can’t hear, rubbing it in my face everynight…I love it when I see your bookmarks are wall to wall twinks with their holes on display. it makes me leak so much knowing I’m not enough to get you properly hard anymore.

I’m too pathetic and useless compared to them, and that thought just makes me throb like crazy. I keep imagining humping desperately against my bed in my diaper while you’re getting off to someone better… thinking of crawling over afterwards to clean you up like a good, worthless boy. I can’t stop fantasising about you using my diapers as spunk rags… filling them with your load while you’re thinking about/fucking other twinks, then making me wear it all day. Sitting there squirming and rubbing your cum against my hole, feeling like the drippy, useless baby I really am.

I’ve never really admitted how deep this goes before… but I’m so shy and leaky just telling you. I want to be your soft, pathetic cuck in nappies while you enjoy whatever you want. I feel you want it, are tired of being denied your real urges, and your needs come first. What do you think about all this, Daddy…?

I’m blushing so hard right now.Your shy, drippy little cuck baby xx

Hey guys,

(I can delete if not allowed)

I'm in a relationship with the love of my life (and daddy, I'm ABDL so obviously he's very protective of me). We haven't had sex in a very long time and he's very openly wanking over other guys/writing porn based on them. I've became accepting and am finding the cuck thing very horny (I used to lick his balls over him wanking over girls - and he mentioned being a bull to a cuck being a fantasy of his in the past...but boys, it hits the spot differently)...it's radiating off me and he's been feeling it I know, he keeps making comments about how he mutes his player so I don't hear, and sends me out of the room for him to wank, talks about other twinks all day. I'm completely cool with it, and I have been hinting about telling him something important soon, which he started 'checking on me' for - looking at my laptop to make sure I'm behaving. I am writing him a handwritten letter ...do you think it's good, or is there anything else I can include. I do want him to get horny I admit, and I do want some insight from people who have cucked before on both sides. I hope this is allowed, and I can delete if it isn't! thankyyouuu.

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Hey Daddy,

I know I shouldn’t be sending this while you’re busy working… but I just can’t stop being a naughty, drippy little brat today.

I’ve been getting so horny and embarrassed lately. I love it when you wank to other boys and mute everything so I can’t hear, rubbing it in my face everynight…I love it when I see your bookmarks are wall to wall twinks with their holes on display. it makes me leak so much knowing I’m not enough to get you properly hard anymore.

I’m too pathetic and useless compared to them, and that thought just makes me throb like crazy. I keep imagining humping desperately against my bed in my diaper while you’re getting off to someone better… thinking of crawling over afterwards to clean you up like a good, worthless boy. I can’t stop fantasising about you using my diapers as spunk rags… filling them with your load while you’re thinking about/fucking other twinks, then making me wear it all day. Sitting there squirming and rubbing your cum against my hole, feeling like the drippy, useless baby I really am.

I’ve never really admitted how deep this goes before… but I’m so shy and leaky just telling you. I want to be your soft, pathetic cuck in nappies while you enjoy whatever you want. I feel you want it, are tired of being denied your real urges, and your needs come first. What do you think about all this, Daddy…?

I’m blushing so hard right now.Your shy, drippy little cuck baby xx

Hey guys,

I'm in a relationship with the love of my life (and daddy, I'm ABDL so obviously he's very protective of me). We haven't had sex in a very long time and he's very openly wanking over other guys/writing porn based on them. I've became accepting and am finding the cuck thing very horny (I used to lick his balls over him wanking over girls - and he mentioned being a bull to a cuck being a fantasy of his in the past...but boys, it hits the spot differently)...it's radiating off me and he's been feeling it I know, he keeps making comments about how he mutes his player so I don't hear, and sends me out of the room for him to wank, talks about other twinks all day. I'm completely cool with it, and I have been hinting about telling him something important soon, which he started 'checking on me' for - looking at my laptop to make sure I'm behaving. I am writing him a handwritten letter ...do you think it's good, or is there anything else I can include. I do want him to get horny I admit, and I do want some insight from people who have cucked before on both sides. I hope this is allowed, and I can delete if it isn't! thankyyouuu.

---

Hey Daddy,

I know I shouldn’t be sending this while you’re busy working… but I just can’t stop being a naughty, drippy little brat today.

I’ve been getting so horny and embarrassed lately. I love it when you wank to other boys and mute everything so I can’t hear, rubbing it in my face everynight…I love it when I see your bookmarks are wall to wall twinks with their holes on display. it makes me leak so much knowing I’m not enough to get you properly hard anymore.

I’m too pathetic and useless compared to them, and that thought just makes me throb like crazy. I keep imagining humping desperately against my bed in my diaper while you’re getting off to someone better… thinking of crawling over afterwards to clean you up like a good, worthless boy. I can’t stop fantasising about you using my diapers as spunk rags… filling them with your load while you’re thinking about/fucking other twinks, then making me wear it all day. Sitting there squirming and rubbing your cum against my hole, feeling like the drippy, useless baby I really am.

I’ve never really admitted how deep this goes before… but I’m so shy and leaky just telling you. I want to be your soft, pathetic cuck in nappies while you enjoy whatever you want. I feel you want it, are tired of being denied your real urges, and your needs come first. What do you think about all this, Daddy…?

I’m blushing so hard right now.Your shy, drippy little cuck baby xx

my partner and me have been together for 5 years. we met on fetlife and are both very kinky. other time however, our dynamic has shifted. I'm an ABDL and love all things diapers and degradation. he was into that it seemed, but since I moved in, things have changed and he never wants to change my diapers.

at first we tried to be kinky. i dressed in stockings, was turned on, but he seemed to not be, and needed viagra to fuck me. then over time we did this less and i did more of licking his balls while he wanked over girls - an idea he came up with! (he's bisexual). I found it so exciting, and would hump his leg while he did it, sometimes he'd finger my hole. He'd cum first though and spend ages. I'm considered very good looking and he's even said he doesn't know where the disconnect is, and maybe it's because I am dependent, so that isn't an issue.

it happened less and less until eventually he told me he wants to wank alone and encouraged i do too, until we work things out sexually. it's been about 8 months of this now. I'm humping my diapers, degrading angles in my head. it shifted from being mocked and used to being cucked, but with other boys.

I shamefully hid this, and imagined my bf cucking me with other twinks. Some things made me think it's actually really happening...i.e. my bf falling out with me, saying he has other sexual ideas, and removing me from his fetlife relationship status - and then when we made up saying he tried to re relationship me, but it 'didn't work', which I don't buy.

Then comes the sudden telling me to turn away when he logs into fetlife.

He started wanking over other twinks, and spends a lot of the day looking at other fetlife profiles, groups, and videos, none of which are me. he even told me when I asked that he has never wanked over me ever. He even once hinted at the idea of using another boy for his porn stories (and I got really annoyed and said never, but I kind of regret it).

since then I started really going there in my fantasy - me as his helpless baby in diapers, who desperately fancies him but is too fragile and has to be put to bed and read bedtime stories while daddy has adult time. It started as a coping thing but now I can't get off on anything else.

I don't know if he can sense that...because lately he's been downloading more and more porn of boys (I found he had 13gb on a data stick), tells me openly that he's wanking over them, mutes the player then tells me he mutes it because he doesn't want me hearing (I never asked) etc. he'll say things like 'daddy had the best wank over a twink earlier'

I wonder if he has gotten the hint. After all I've always been more into power exchange , parental controls and diapers type stuff etc rather than being fucked.

where do I go now? and do you have any tips about how I do it and if it's a good idea?

my partner and me have been together for 5 years. we met on fetlife and are both very kinky. other time however, our dynamic has shifted. I'm an ABDL and love all things diapers and degradation. he was into that it seemed, but since I moved in, things have changed and he never wants to change my diapers.

at first we tried to be kinky. i dressed in stockings, was turned on, but he seemed to not be, and needed viagra to fuck me. then over time we did this less and i did more of licking his balls while he wanked over girls - an idea he came up with! (he's bisexual). I found it so exciting, and would hump his leg while he did it, sometimes he'd finger my hole. He'd cum first though and spend ages. I'm considered very good looking and he's even said he doesn't know where the disconnect is, and maybe it's because I am dependent, so that isn't an issue.

it happened less and less until eventually he told me he wants to wank alone and encouraged i do too, until we work things out sexually. it's been about 8 months of this now. I'm humping my diapers, degrading angles in my head. it shifted from being mocked and used to being cucked, but with other boys.

I shamefully hid this, and imagined my bf cucking me with other twinks. Some things made me think it's actually really happening...i.e. my bf falling out with me, saying he has other sexual ideas, and removing me from his fetlife relationship status - and then when we made up saying he tried to re relationship me, but it 'didn't work', which I don't buy.

Then comes the sudden telling me to turn away when he logs into fetlife.

He started wanking over other twinks, and spends a lot of the day looking at other fetlife profiles, groups, and videos, none of which are me. he even told me when I asked that he has never wanked over me ever. He even once hinted at the idea of using another boy for his porn stories (and I got really annoyed and said never, but I kind of regret it).

since then I started really going there in my fantasy - me as his helpless baby in diapers, who desperately fancies him but is too fragile and has to be put to bed and read bedtime stories while daddy has adult time. It started as a coping thing but now I can't get off on anything else.

I don't know if he can sense that...because lately he's been downloading more and more porn of boys (I found he had 13gb on a data stick), tells me openly that he's wanking over them, mutes the player then tells me he mutes it because he doesn't want me hearing (I never asked) etc. he'll say things like 'daddy had the best wank over a twink earlier'.

I wonder if he has gotten the hint. After all I've always been more into power exchange , parental controls and diapers type stuff etc rather than being fucked.

where do I go now? and do you have any tips about how I do it and if it's a good idea?