*Mostly just to vent
I’ve been ABDL now for a long time, mostly for comfort reasons not sexual ones, but have often times had a hard time dealing with the shame of it all. I recently started opening up to my partner about this and even started wearing diapers to bed and close to bed time.
This has helped my sleep a lot and I feel much more comfortable when I go to bed. And my partner claims she has no issues with it and is just happy that I have something that helps me deal with my stress and anxiety. I worry a lot that she’s not being completely honest though and that I’m going to push her away from our relationship because of this.
I’ve also been wetting the bed almost every night, which could be due to some medical issues as I have some sort of bladder/bowel issue im still waiting for a diagnosis on. But the bedwetting has seemed to increase the feelings of shame and worry.
I’m not really sure where to go from here, my partner told me she supports me wearing even if it is what cause the bedwetting. I’m just scared to lose someone I love deeply over a part of me I can’t control.
I didn’t ask to be ABDL and I can’t change the fact that I am. but it still makes me feel so awful about myself and I don’t know what to do.