u/Queenkiller588

I’m 23 and I need to get this off my chest. I think I’m a failure as a man. I’m super skinny and can’t build muscle. All my family and friends tell me that all the time. I’ve never had sex in my life and only jerk off to what I wish I had. I have a gf but she is trans and she tells me quite a bit that I’m feminine and would make a great girl, and yeah she Tops me in bed and loves watching me cum from fucking me. I’ve never truly felt manly. I’m conflicted and at a loss. What do I do?

I’m 23 and I need to get this off my chest. I think I’m a failure as a man. I’m super skinny and can’t build muscle. All my family and friends tell me that all the time. I’ve never had sex in my life and only jerk off to what I wish I had. I have a gf but she is trans and she tells me quite a bit that I’m feminine and would make a great girl, and yeah she Tops me in bed and loves watching me cum from fucking me. I’ve never truly felt manly. I’m conflicted and at a loss. What should I do?

Everyone is 18+

So I’m typically straight and I have a gf now but one night a few years ago I was curious and horny so I downloaded Grindr and after a bit I got a message from a guy. We got to chatting and swapped a few pics and eventually he asked if we could meet up. I said sure and he asked if it was ok if his friend joined, I said that was ok and he said his friend would pick me up at a nearby park. After waiting a while a car pulled up and the guy told me to get in. I did and was told to put on a blindfold he had with him so I did and he started driving.

After a while he stoped and guided me into the bedroom where I was told to strip and take the blindfold off. I did and they were already naked and jerking. We got on the bed and I stared sucking them both. After a bit one of them got some lube and put it on my ass. I was hesitant because it was my first time but he told me to relax and then push inside me. It hurt but felt amazing. They took turns fucking my mouth and ass for a while, then I was flipped on my back and one of them took some pictures, the guy fucking me grabbed my cock and jerking furiously and I came immediately and it was the most intense orgasm I’ve ever had. The guy fucked for a little longer before thrusting in me hard then he pulled out and shot all over me. The guy taking pictures came quickly after that all over my face. He took more pictures than told me to get dressed and I’d be taken back to the park. I did but they kept my underwear as I guess a souvenir. After I was dressed I was blindfolded and dropped back at the park.

I went home and jerked off again because I was so damn horny. I got another message from him saying “thanks for the pics and souvenir” then I never heard from him again.

I still think about this all the time but can never do it again because of my gf.