Cyclothymia and Hypersexuality
I'm a 37-year-old male and suffer from cyclothymia, which is a mild form of bipolar disorder. It's basically a glorified name for mood swings. I cycle between ups and downs, between intense productivity accompanied by practically blissful joy and crushing sadness and despair pretty quickly, sometimes in the span of a single day.
During the ups, I have a very high degree of impulse control. During the downs, though, I lose all impulse control and need sexual release to cope. I've sometimes tried to just power through the lows and wait for them to dissipate on their own, but it just dosn't work. Nothing dispels them except a really, really strong orgasm.
I'm in a relationship, but my girlfriend is very vanilla and has a low sex drive, so what I inevitably end up doing is edging for hours and hours until I build up an orgasm strong enough to relieve the symptoms. I so often end up doing things I later regret, too, things I definitely shouldn't be doing while in a relationship.
It's very distressing, as I feel terrible about myself, but I have no idea what to do about it. I've been struggling with this for about as long as I can remember. I've tried everything to try to make it stop, but nothing works. I'm at a loss.