44 [F4M] #online #Idaho Submissive Teacher In Need of Someone to Help Me Turn My Brain Off.
Let’s get the disclaimer out of the way first: Yes, I live with my ex husband. We got back together in some capacity, but never remarried. My intimate life has been dormant for nearly three years, he’s made his peace with that. Full disclosure: he wouldn’t be okay with what I’m doing here, but can’t keep ignoring my needs just because I can’t leave just yet. So, here I am, finally doing something about it instead of grading papers, attending school functions, and pretending I’m fine with a sexless, passionless, vanilla life.
About me: I’m a 44 year old BBW who spends her days educating young minds, making approximately 5,652 decisions before lunch, and being the authority figure in every room I walk into. Always having to be *on* and in control is exhausting. I love my job. I also desperately need someone who will help me not be that person for a few hours.
I’ll be honest about something that I’m finally ready to say out loud: I’ve known I was submissive for a long time. I just never felt safe enough to do anything about it. I haven’t been able to let go or quiet my brain because no one has ever earned enough of my trust to earn my submission. I’m hoping that changes.
I’m open to starting this connection online; getting to know each other, building trust, and seeing where it leads. If the foundation is right, I’m genuinely open to the possibility of an in-person dynamic. I’m not in a rush. I just want it to be real.
I’m new to acting on this. Not new to thinking about it.
What I’m looking for:
Someone experienced, emotionally intelligent, and communicative. Not someone who just watched a tutorial or read 50 Shades. Please don’t make contact if you think because I am new to this that you can abuse me under the guise of kink.
The fantasy is simple but it matters deeply to me: I want my brain completely, blissfully off. No decisions. No leading. No being responsible for anyone or anything. Just someone who takes the wheel with confidence and genuine care.
What you should know about me:
*overthink everything (occupational hazard), so patience isn’t just appreciated, it’s required. It’s also an AuDHD thing. I’ve got some personality quirks you could find endearing or annoying. Just being honest.
*I’m a BBW who is still learning to love herself, and I need someone who sees that as something worth protecting, not exploiting.
* Please don’t contact me if you won’t exchange pictures to see if there is a physical attraction. Yes, it’s shallow, but we both know that initial attraction is important. I am willing to send pictures so you know exactly what I look like without makeup on, looking a hot mess. If you don’t find me attractive, and I don’t feel at least a few butterflies, we shake hands and say goodbye cordially.
*Safety and clear communication aren’t negotiable for me. I expect hard limits to be established and respected before anything else, and my inexperience is not an invitation to skip that part.
*I took the BDSM test and came out 95% submissive and 87% bratty. Fair warning. If you’d like to see my full results to gauge compatibility, I’m happy to share. I also filled out the BDSM kink checklist if you would like to see that as well.
If you’re an experienced, protective Dom aged 30-49 who appreciates a smart, self-aware woman who is finally, FINALLY ready to stop being in charge of everything, I’d really love to hear from you.