Fuck me, I've been going through it mentally lately. In an attempt to keep it brief, I'm graduating college in under a month, I'm having a rough time keeping on top of everything, and now is the time that my trauma decides "hey, do you want to feel *everything all at once?!"* I even had a terrible mental episode last night, flashbacks and all. Ugh, it was awful.
I'm just tired of having to take care of myself for so long. I long to be held, cuddled, get affection, the whole thing. I don't want to make decisions anymore. Even if it's just for a week or two, even a day, I want to be taken care of. I want a lady who knows what I want more than I do and wants me to have it. I want to be pampered, absolutely spoiled for a while. I want a lady who says "you've been such a good girl lately, you deserve this reward." It doesn't even have to be sex or anything sexual, though that would be nice.
I'm not sure if this is a kink in itself or something deeper, lmao. But god do I crave this shit. I want to be collared. I want to be owned, but still treated with respect. I want to be marked, but with the greatest of love.
(Im so sorry if this doesn't belong here; it was the only place I could think of to put it lmao)