Question for the Gals, how do I be a proper sub?
Hi, So I have no experience literally none dating irl. I’ve been so shy, so self conscious and afraid to talk to girls. I’ve only just started talking to them online in a community where I post often. But in that community I’m anonymous. My gender isn’t listed and my details are not available. It feels safer and I can be myself without judgement from friends or family. When I talk there I’m respectful and kind, and kinda feminine. I’ve made friends and one online RP partner.
We’ve RP’d domme and sub for about a year. We switch cause we both are subs. So we take turns being the sub whilst the other is a domme. When I’m a sub I like being humiliated, it just gets me every time. It gets me needy though. Sometimes I get this bad feeling like I don’t deserve to be a sub. Like I’m too needy. Submissive means submitting to your partner right? Does wanting humiliation during teases and flirting and eventually sex mean I’m not submissive? I turn obedient on the drop of a dime but I’m still confused. I do as told, blush into oblivion and melt. We have safe words and boundaries. My sex drive feels a lot higher than theirs so maybe that’s why I feel bad?
Am I a bad person? How do I be better for that person I’ve come to care about?