u/ShockAlternative195

Son here just realizing and reminiscing about the childhood I had and how I somehow miss the days my stepdad was hard on me. I now realize it was sexual frustration he never got to express himself. I took it as trauma and went towards substances to help me cope with it all. Now I want to fix it and bring the family back if possible because I miss the good times but also do not miss the times I witnessed my mom get hurt by my drunken stepdads actions. As a son I just want her happy and the divorce is in process and I want this to be good for the family without any problems. Long story short I grew up in a very open family household. Nudity, long talks about sex education, Health was main concern for the household and my stepdad ruined it all by cheating and trying to start another family. We could have had the best family but now I’m leaning towards maybe getting closer with my mom which has been my biggest fantasy since the first time I’ve laid my eyes on her naked body going thru puberty. My first erection was from seeing her body, hearing her moans, my body reacted in ways that only a son can understand and comprehend. I’ve sent her pics of my erection and videos of me ejaculating on a drunken night as a step to break the ice to continue where we left off and I’m just scared to lose her again. She comes over to my new apartment more now then ever since the divorce and I’m just taking it easy letting her get her freedom back but I know she has needs and I wanna be the one to meet them if you get my drift. Concerned Son here.