28M and 26F how do I enjoy the relationship or get out
Advice Needed
I'm the male half to a popular real cuck couple that post on all platforms. We've been in the lifestyle a couple years. However, my mental health has greatly deteriorated recently. I get told all the time how lucky I am but its getting harder and harder to even get up in the morning. It would be easier if she treated me with respect off camera but I find myself doing all the cooking, cleaning, editing, and posting without much appreciation. I've tried talking to her but she always finds a way to dismiss my feelings or blame my weed addiction. She messages our fans all day for direct video sales and other cuck stuff which gets most of her positve patient energy. It would be easier ti handle as well if all the money we earn didn't go directly to her account leaving me to ask for something as simple as a snack or energy drink I want. We dont share the same bed anymore because shes a light sleepr, and I'm not allowed to talk about our relationship with others because she doesnt want people judging. I feel so alone, cucking doesnt get me off anymore (it used to, we both started our account together) but its how we earn money so I cant stop now. I sacrificed my career and family for this. I dont know how to get out besides... well looking for advice, how do people cope or how do I get back into enjoying the lifestyle? I should also mention I've stuggled with addiction which is why she doesn't trust me with our money. 1.5 years sober from alcohol and other harder stuff, I just smoke weed and pop gas station kratom like a heathen still. Im not trying to be a victim, I know I played a large role in how I get treated by doing drugs and excusing her poor treatment.