u/Smithy1619

I wrote on here before here is my story and now present day.

The first time I experienced prostate play was many years ago with my ex girlfriend we was in our 20s at the time and she only did it once with a previous boyfriend and as I said it was my first time and I was glad I did it.

The first time she used her fingers stimulating my prostate while playing with my cock but as she was doing it she'd rub her thumb over the tip of my head while stimulating my prostate. As she was rubbing her thumb over the tip of it and fingering at the right spot she made me squirt watery fluid only my body and it felt so good then she'd make me fire what I believe was precum as it wasn't sticky as normal cum what an orgasm, it was like electric waves going through my body I never felt anything so good like that before. She did it a few times again afterwards and every time felt so good I didn't know what I experienced back then but wow like I said it was amazing and made me tremble.

Now this was many years ago and I can't find anyone to do it for me my current partner of 13 years together won't do it for me she's not really into it, yes I know I can do it myself but nothing beats someone doing it for you. I do still speak with my ex who did it (We split up on good terms) but I always wonder if she's still into it. Well one day as we were speaking she reminded me of that first time and how it made me feel, she asked me if I've ever had it done by someone after her I told the trust and said no. That's when she said she's still into it and more (obviously rimming and using toys) and now I can't stop thinking about thinking about that moment and wish I could have it done to me again. I'm in a dilemma with it, I want to feel that again I want to feel those electric waves firing through my body, I know it's probably just my mind reliving that memory

What would you do?