Please please tell me I'm not the only one who has dealt with this
I'm 30F, in a monogamous marriage with a 46M, with a child who's his. Been together for 9 years, married for 4.
He and I are co-founders with two others. One of them is a woman who's married and older than myself. I am experiencing intense limerence for this woman. At first I just thought it was a crush but, at this point I can acknowledge it's unhealthy. Anyone else dealt with this? I want to stay with my husband, I love our child, etc. I just love the way I feel when I am around this other woman, she makes me feel validated and seen. I know nothing can come of this, even though I think she has some complicated feelings for me as well?
I want to continue because I'm passionate about this project, but I don't know how to separate my feelings for her and feel secure in myself again. I really hate my sexuality sometimes. These feelings are almost entirely romantic, by the way, and not really sexual at all. I continue to have sex with my partner, happily.
I would like to see a therapist but my partner and I are both in between jobs (the business we are cofounding is still in the works) so I am really hoping folks will have some kind of advice or at least make me feel less crazy. I wish I could at least know if she likes me so I can have some closure. Is this a normal part of the bi back and forth thing? This is horrible! Anyway. Thanks for reading.