Newer to anal
My current obsession is Anal. I’ve become addicted to watching anal slip videos… I had been interested in it for a while and whenever I get really hot and bothered I feel the urge to be filled in every hole.
So I asked my husband to do it. And I cried. He couldn’t even get the tip in and I was bleeding. It’s been a while since and I still get the urge for him to fuck my ass so I decided to look into training my ass.
I’m honestly too scared to order sex toys and plugs so Ive started with my fingers and then a perineal massager (ifkyk)
Some days it hurts, some days it feels amazing. So good I don’t want to pull it out. Regardless, every time I do pull out or “thrust” I feel the urge to pee (squirt?) is this normal??
Since it it still painful and I can’t get very wide I wonder if I’ll ever be able to let my husband enter?? How will I know when I’m ready?? Is it wrong to be doing this in secret??
I’m also so scared of sh!tting on him… he’s very particular and gets very turned off very easily. I’m so scared.
How can I turn into an anal/double penetration slut??